Random Thoughts And Rants

A letter to my ex

Dear ex,

How are you doing? I know I haven't spoken to you in so long. How's your dog? I think I miss him more than I miss you. Wait hold that, I don't really miss you to be honest.

I know it's been a while but I was just thinking- that seems to be the only thing I do these days- I was thinking about us and i have to confess something. The truth is, I never loved you. I'm sorry but I never did. You probably guessed that when I didn't say it back but yeah, I never loved you. I doubt I even liked you. When you held me, sure it felt good. But I felt wanted. That's right. I felt wanted in your arms. When I was with you, it felt nice because I felt wanted, not because I loved you.

I loved him. I truly did. He didn't feel the same way. Months passed and I pretended to get over him. I think i did that because a part of me thought if I lied, it would eventually turn into the truth. Then you came along. You made me feel like I was wanted, he never wanted me, but you did. That's why I gave in. That's why I did this to you. I broke your heart, at least that's what I thought. I saw you with a girl the other day, you were happy, and I guess you deserve it. But then the question rises, did you also feel wanted in my arms? Or was it love that you felt?

Love, from the girl who thought she broke your heart.