Random Thoughts And Rants

Am i not enough?

Why can't you just choose me over her? Am I not enough? I can change if you want me to.
But then again, you won't exactly choose me if you change me because it won't be me it'll be the person you want me to be.
Why do you keep pushing me away? It's like your just talking to me because you know I like you. Would you talk to me if you didn't know? Probably not. And it's okay because I don't think I would talk to me either. And I think you made the right decision. because why would anyone want a fat, ugly, selfish, stupid, egoistic, and a narcissistic bitch as their girlfriend? But I just wish you could look at me the way you look at her. What do you see in her that you don't in me? She dumped you, she hurt you, I would never ever do that. I promise. You don't even try to like me back. You ignore my texts like it's nothing but deep down I think you know that it's killing me. Why would you want me to feel this way? Do you want me to not like you anymore? Trust me I tried. But the thing is: your the one I want and even if I try I can't get over your stupid ass. Ugh this is just killing me, she's killing me YOU'RE killing me. I just don't know what to do about it. But my stupid heart still has hope. It hopes that one day you will feel for me, the same way I do. But that's never gonna happen right? Cause this is reality it's not a fucking fairytale. reality it's not a fucking fairytale.

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