Through A Wall {PINESCONE} [DISCONTINUED]

Chapter 20

Somehow, acknowledging things would always make them worse. Acknowledging your love for your best friend would be it multiplied by ten. 

Falling for friends was never an easy task, and Dipper knew it extremely well. Let's just say, he was well-known for falling in love with his best friends.

Although, it was different with Wirt. Of course it was. It had to be.

When in his life had he ever thought he could simply sit silently with someone, with a cup of hot coffee in hand, and not feel awkward? Or unsure of what they were thinking? Only because, deep down, it didn't truly matter. He knew Wirt wouldn't be capable of thinking bad of anyone, well, actually, he would, but not of Dipper.

Either ways, knowing he was so helplessly falling, (if he hadn't already fallen completely), in love changed the way things were.

For the first time, he was hesitant.

He knew that in exact twenty minutes, Wirt would be arriving at the apartment from work, and in an usual day, Dipper would go there for another cup of coffee. It didn't matter how many he had drank during the day, that one was special.

Now, he wasn't sure if he should go to the apartment.

"That's just great," he sighed.

He felt as if it was the first time he had fallen in love in his life. As if all the others didn't exist, or weren't important enough to ever be remembered by him.

His cellphone screen suddenly became a light blue. Quickly, he grabbed it.

God, he couldn't help his smile any time Wirt texted him, as if he was the most important person, who simply had to be aware of everything.

I think I'm going to be late today... annoying lady ugh.

Ugh, that sucks... how late are you going to be?

You gonna miss me that much?

Ha, shut up.

Yes, of course.

I mean, some minutes. No big deal. Like, thirty minutes.

Thirty minutes?!

Dude, this lady is too annoying, you can't imagine!

It's ok. I get it. I'll see you tomorrow anyways, right?

What? No way. We'll see each other today. I'm seriously going to need a cup of coffee to calm down after this much stress.

Yeah, let's be honest, none of us can say no to a cup of coffee.

Specially with that companion. A day he spent without a nice cup of coffee at Wirt's wasn't a day worth remembering.

Would you mind breaking into my apartment? Getting the cup of coffee ready, the popcorn and turn the tv on?

I don't have the keys to your apartment.

Yeah, I know. That's why I said "break into". Don't you dare telling me you can't pick locks. I know you can.

Who do you think that I am? I can't break into your apartment!

Pleaseeee! I'm suffering here to get myself money to buy us popcorn and coffee, and that's how you repay me?

Don't talk like we're some type of old married couple, haha.

Don't talk like we haven't already reached that point of friendship.

What do you mean?

I mean, when you're really friends with someone, there's a point where you just act like an old married couple. That's how much of friends we are!

Ha, sure.

So, that was it.

That's how much of friends they were.

The amount of friendship that stops you from going anywhere else. The amount of friendship that would make things awkward, if he said anything wrong.

If he looked at his friend in a wrong way, spoke in a wrong way, blushed in a wrong way, felt the wrong way.

Any wrong move, even the smallest thing, that could possibly make Wirt realize what was actually going on, would be enough to ruin an entire friendship.

There was one thing Dipper could bear living with, and that thing was loving someone with the knowledge it would never be. He could live with that. He could wake up every morning and realize, it was another day of hiding how he felt, hoping the feeling would die, and just go away.

What he couldn't live without was Wirt's friendship, and the certainty that the boy would always be there for him when he needed.

He'd rather keep him as a friend, and only that, knowing it would never be anything else, than to never have him again. 

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Ok, ik this was a short chapter, and I know it's been such a long time since I last updated this book. But, I'm literally going sick from school stress, (I'm losing so much hair, and I haven't slept in two days, lmao), so this is all I can offer you right now. So sorry 💖💖💖

Hope you enjoyed it, and sorry for not being that active anymore, it's just, school is way too much. I'm too small and cute for that crap really ugh

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