I can't.
i don't want to.
I'm so angry.
i feels so confused, disturbed, upset...
i just want to give in to the tears, i want to let them go.
i want to let you know how much pain you give me, had given me.
its been too long.
you don't even know. about the pain you force upon my shoulders.
i have so many scars. so much painful reminders of trying to escape.
ive cried way too much, ive hurt way too much to still be healthy.
I'm tired of drowning, in my tears. I'm tired of that tight feeling in my chest, a crushing weight that suffocates me when i try to stop the river that flows down my face.
I'm tired of hiding.
I'm tired of pretending I'm happy all the time.
I'm tired of holding my fake façade.
I'm tired of trying.
sometimes you make me tired of living.
you constantly judge me. you constantly tell me how much lesser i am compared to everyone else in the world.
you criticize everything about me, but you still somehow wonder why i hate so much, why i cry so much, why I'm so messed up in the head.
everything i am, the stupid excuse of a human, a girl, is all because of you.
and the side effect of your mistakes, and i hope you know that its all your fault i ended up like this, its all your fault that i always want to leave, to hide. its all your fault that all i want to do is die.
YOU ARE READING
Dirty Petals
Poetryfree verse poetry, well mostly free verse. I don't usually go by any poetic devises at least not purposely. I just go with the flow. I write my feelings on paper but in this situation on my touchscreen or my laptop keys. I write poetry ALOT but that...
