You Got Me - IGY Sequel

10- Diary; Friend

I lay in bed, can't seem to leave your side
Your pillow's wet from all these tears I've cried .

I laid in my bed with tears rolling down my face, I needed someone to talk to but I couldn't talk to the one person who I always talked to, so I took out my diary and wrote-

Dear diary,

I woke up nervous today, why? Today I was supposed to talk to both Reggie and Archie.

When I met with Reggie, I could see that he was heartbroken and it broke my heart to see him like that. I couldn't process that I caused him to be hurt.

But it was his idea in the first place to act like we were dating so that I could make Archie jealous and today he accused me of playing him but I didn't, well I didn't mean to, I didn't know he would start liking me, but I genuinely liked being with Reggie, he made me take my mind off from the growing darkness of Riverdale, the only drawback was that I didn't have feelings for him.

When he asked me to be his girlfriend the first thought that came to my mind was that I loved Archie and it wouldn't be fair to Reggie.

After that day, it left an impact on me and him. But then today he said that we were in good terms but I know we won't be same as before all this happened.

And then it was time to talk to Archie, I made up my mind to go to his house and talk to him but before that Ronnie and I went to Pop's and there walks in Archie with another girl.

My heart burst into a million pieces, the ache was too much for me. The tears were almost there but I tried my best to restrain,

I couldn't show him I was hurt. Because if he moved on and was happy, maybe I could also be happy for him.

I know it's my fault, I didn't talk to him for almost a month. I feel so stupid, I just don't want to see him again, I sound like a child. Gosh.

He caught me looking at him and his eyes were looking at me apologetically, I couldn't stay in there any longer, I felt suffocated.

A million thoughts were going around in my head, but I stayed as calm as I could in front of him and Ronnie, but she saw right through me.

I can't help stop the tears now, I don't know what to do, what to feel. All I feel now is hurt and I don't want to feel that. I'm tired of being hurt.

I just want to be happy for once.

I want to be loved.

I want to feel free.

Thanks for being there,

Betty.

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I'm so sorry this chapter update sucks. I promise I'll write better again soon.

Sorry again. :(

Wx