My Life

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Sup bitchesssss!!!
Im back and more dramatic as ever. Lets start with what i call the crazy yoga lady, long story short she got told shes some yoga chosen one and now thinks she can tell the future, anyways she had a massive birthday thing and my parents where coming later than me so i decided a couple beers wont hurt, fast forward and then we where in Alex(her son and my freind's) room and his dad gave us a whole bottle of vodka, he was pissed, i was pissed and so was his mate Joe, who btw was really fit. Well when my parents got there they found out about me and got pretty mad, i threw up on my own feet and all over Alex's room, hit on Joe the whole time, and Alex asked my to have his kids. Yes that is still freaking me out. I also then somehow woke up in their attic...
Amazingly the next day i had no hangover which is great because that night i had Lauras party where Sasha got pissed before i even arrived so me, Matt v-e and Meghan(relevant for later) had to look after her and call her parents which i felt awful for but she was pretty funny so i forgive. The rest of the party happened without her and i once again got drunk. I also then had my first proper get off which was terrible, i wasn't expecting it so i bit his tongue and it was just a huge fuck up. I also think the person I've kissed the most is now Laura, we kissed a lot that night gotta admit.
Anyways i got back to school and everyone was being a bit off with me and on Friday Emily comes up to me and just says 'by the way i know you've been bitching about me the past couple months and i think its really petty' and walked of so i yell i think that was a but petty back and that was it. I texted her that night and tried to fix it because i cant be bothered to fight these posh twats anymore and i just want to fake it until i leave but she had none of it she wants to do it in person. My mum also saw Emilys dad in tesco and he's on my side, that proves a point. So basically Molly was the snake as we talked about this TOGETHER and it wasn't just me who said all this, it was her too. At this point i am absolutely done but its not over yet, ohhh noooo, next i go to Ruspini, the nursery to help out, and this happens.
One of the little girls comes over to me, shes three, and shows me a plaster on her hand so I asked her what happened and she says ' daddy was hurting my brother and my brother was hurting daddy and daddy hurt me' i was freaking out by now and i asked her if it was an accident and she shook her head and walked away. I obviously reported it to her teacher but I'm still stressed about it, the whole thing is still surreal.
ONTOP of all this shit? The guy I've talked to  for about 7 months and like doesn't like me back anymore. Let me go from the start here, so Meghan(told you she'd appear again) id the guys, ben, ex and she also happens to be Siobhan's best freind so when i told Siobhan i liked him she thought i said we where linking so at a party Siobhan and Meghan punch poor ben and i feel awful cuz its my fault. It then moves to the blym party where apparently he liked me but because of siobhan he was too scared to come up to me. I herd this from Sasha because when i was at crazy yoga lady's Alex took the phone cuz he knew about my little crush and he texted i like u so ben then texts sasha freaking out and tells her about blym party and i tell him it wasn't me which kinda cleared it because he doesn't know that i know about the blym party. So we still talking and fast forward to today, everyone, literally everyone, was there and we had great fun but still all i could think about was Ben. We had a great time at the end though and when he left i actually thought we would have a chance together, my hopes where soo high, but i was wrong as Sasha asked him and he said he doesn't any more but i get it I'm an annoying prick. It still made me so so so upset and now i am in tears again because i have basically no one and my life has fallen apart.

IVY    25/03/18