My Life

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Wow been a while hasn't it?? I kinda missed writing my life down i know one day i want to come back to this and realize the crazy shit that really happens. Anyways theres alot to get through so here it is.

Well remember when zebedee liked me?? Well on an explorers trip to France on yachts  and whilst i had a record of throwing up on the way to france we got very drunk there on some strong as fuck wine, and i told him i regretted when i rejected him and now im scared i might like him but now he has this girlfriend Olivia who is in upper 6th in my school making it sooo awkward to see her around. Owen also likes me and wont fucking leave me alone no matter how insane i try to sound. Lauras fucked up everything with everyone and she was supposed to move to essex so we wont have to deal with her anymore but surprise shes staying to finish a levels and i cant be fucked with her anymore. Kirsty is now going out with matt c which is pretty cute and i like him but i dont think siobhan approves of it much. We've started to all go to the bus stop to get to school together, almost all the siblings its me kirsty siobhan max and Vasili walks a bit of it with his freind james who lives in my old house and they go off to Lucas to walk to school. Its kind of scary that they're all in year 7 now. The bus at the moment is being cancelled and replaced but that also means that its not bothering showing up at the moment so we are having to get lifts to school between my mum and maggie. Today we saw the Russell's weird ass neighbour Dylan at the bus stop apparently he's got the same bus as us now and its so weird he's trying to get involved and shit with us and it was really awkward when we all got into my mums car cuz the bus didn't come and he tried to get in with us but there was no room and i was shitting myself i kind of feel bad but i dont he freaks me the fuck out sometimes.
Onto sasha, she was getting really close to this guy ally, who was Massimo's cousin, but then he unexpectedly died like a couple of months in. She is heartbroken and i dont think she will ever be ok with it but i dont know what to do to help her. I think i have some mental problems too, i cant concentrate on my work anymore and im scared for anything in life to change. I think i need a therapist. Well i probably need one for more than that. My dad for start is getting worse by the day and my family are becoming worse ganging up on my mum for what they did I'm done with all of them if i where her id get a divorce but i suppose shes doing it for us which is what i hate. Zebedees been the first person to really listen about my dad and hear me out no one else will listen to me but its fine i guess. Yh definitely need a therapist. Send me some good ones...
IVY   10/9/18