Angel [Hierarchy Series] [Harry Potter Fanfiction] (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 16 - Her confession

Chapter 16

"N/N, it's fine, we understand –"

The three Gryffindor –consisting Hermione, Ginny, and Nathan –with the other two Hufflepuff, Ella and Y/N, stood in the highest floor of the Owlery as Y/N asked to be lead here. The girl was sombered, no smile or cheery voice and it was worrying everyone –though she did seem to light up a bit when they arrived to the West Tower.

Hermione wouldn't let her go then, feeling, via the link, that Y/N wasn't alright as she claims to be. She felt what Y/N was feeling; though it was really confusing her that Y/N was flooded with different emotion all at once yet the girl seem so calm outside –perhaps Y/N was simply irresolute, Hermione theorized, and acting up the part.

The privacy of the Owlery seems to help too and the residents of the tower seem to welcome the girl in a familiar manner, having each owls they passed hoot and coos, leaving their parches to land somewhere in Y/N's body part, like her shoulder, stretch arms and elsewhere that was the avail.

Hermione didn't question it along with everyone, though she can hear Ella muttering to both Nathan and Ginny about it. It was obvious that they were being included to Y/N's world, where she was the one in control of it, and Hermione couldn't help but be in awe, having to see every owl surrounding the girl in both such adorable manner and kind of protective-stance –Hermione isn't sure though, she was never the one to pay too much attention on the behavior of owls.

Y/N was being kissed by them and the hoots were playful and singing. And she seems to know each owl by name, and Hermione was surprise to see that Hedwig was among the owls that was flattering around her.

No one spoke a word and the only brave made a sound, a sigh –a very tired one that Y/N cannot help but release. She felt her wall crumbled a bit, with Hermione presence so near, asking it to fall and for Y/N to let the girl in. And that voice, buzzing in her ears, saying 'Do it.' that threatens to take the choice out of her.

'No.' Y/N frowned deeply. Thankfully, she was facing the window instead the, surely, questioning eyes behind her.

'Why?'

'Just...'

'You can trust her most out of everyone you see in front of you.' the voice keeps insisting. 'She will be your friend when we are troubled.'

Y/N grits her teeth but her face stoic that Hermione, who stood beside her -watching her, cannot point out the fight inside of her. She took a deep breath, 'No, no one else but Nathan, he is the only one I can trust!'

'Ever the stubborn girl thou are, my Y/N, but behead my words!' Y/N huffed and close her eyes, she felt offended, belittled. 'It will not be pleasant for thou to keep pushing them for all doesn't wish to do thee wrong. I warn you my dear girl.'

This made Y/N thinks for a bit as opens her eyes and she look down to the floor. 'Why?' she asked but received no response. 'WHY?' she wanted to shout out, hating the fact that voice was leaving her to the dark again –like everyone was doing to her! Not everyone-everyone though, just... them who thought of her stupid, looking at her with pity like she'd break any second –and she does. Y/N is fragile; she knows that herself but 'NO!' Never again, she will do what she knows instead. She is strong, will be, she promised Megan!

She almost shouted there, wanting her rage, her truths and the lies, whatever is hidden beneath her words, shows the chaos of her mind. For all of it to be spilled but that was not her moral. Y/N is supposed to be the light despite the darkness in her.