What She Went Through.... CURRENTLY UPDATING

The Wrong One

Brianna

"Look at what you did... You're a murderer!!!... Baby Killer!!... you make me sick to my stomach.. What would God think??... You'll burn in Hell!!!! HELL!!"

I bolted up in a bead of sweat all over my head and body. My heart was beating out of my chest. These dreams I keep having are getting out of hand. I can't stop them and I'm starting to not to want to even sleep. I looked over and Carter was still sleeping with his arm around my waist. I moved his hand slowly trying to not wake him up and grab me a shirt off the floor.

Walking to the bathroom I reached for the light. It blinded me but my eyes adjusted to them. Staring at myself in the mirror my head was in a curly ponytail. I looked at myself than at my stomach.

Lifting my shirt up I stared at my stomach. It was starting to get hard at the bottom and you could kinda see it.... I'm almost two and a half months now and I honestly don't know why I still haven't gotten the abortion.

I want too than again I don't know. Carter still doesn't know and I feel so damn terrible for not telling him about it. Me pregnant with another mans baby. I'm sure he's gonna think I was cheating on him but that's not the case at all.

Me and Carter still haven't had sex yet. He's been giving me a lot of oral but no penis.

And boy am I horny ....

Darren started back giving me the silent treatment because I haven't gave him an answer about what I wanna do with the baby. But these got damn dreams are making me feel like a asshole. I don't want to be called a murderer or baby killer. I wish people would understand my situation.

Melissa keeps calling me too about the court hearing and I just can't deal with that right now. I already didn't show up in court pissing my friends off but hey I don't care.

"Brianna??" I heard Carter call my name. I put my shirt down and opened the door. I smiled. "Yeah Carter I'm right here." I said getting back into the bed with him. He cuddled up next to me. Holding me tight.

"I thought you left. Don't ever leave me okay?" He said sleepy and groggily. I nodded "Okay" he kissed my forehead as we drifted back to sleep.

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"So for your birthday I'm throwing you a party babe." I heard Carter say. I was brushing my teeth.

"My birthday is tomorrow... And it's a Sunday night." I said through the mix of brushing so honestly it didn't sound nothing like it should.

"And ?? You act like you have to go to school or something." He said matter a factly.

Touchè

Spitting the toothpaste out. "Well I don't want a party. I'm okay."

"Why not? Parties are fun. You can invite all of your friends from school and some people from work. It should be fun." He said kissing my forehead.

"If I invite them than it's going to be about twenty people there.."

"That's why I know people too. Just say okay." He gave me a look.

I sighed.. "Fineeeeeee.."

"Alright than it's set. I'll see you later. Have to go to a meeting with my Dad. I'll come pick you up for lunch. We need to talk." He told me stepping out of his closet.

I turned around.. "Talk abou-"

Seeing this man made my heart melt. Jesus he is just so perfect. He had on a nice crispy Taylor Suit. With his hair in a ponytail. His face nicely shaved his chin lined up right along with his cheeks. His green eyes just popping out. He looked like Jesus himself. I was in love..