𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝 | p.jm

twenty five

viewing.

it was jimin's viewing today. The actual funeral where he got buried would be in 4 more days from now.

I showed up at the funeral homes and saw many family members and friends sobbing into each other's chests.

I saw Tayjung and Lisa.

those bitches.

"(Y/N)... do you know where Petunia is?" Lisa asks.

I roll my eyes at her, as i held in my own tears thinking of Jimin.

"she got arrested for 7 months." I say without feeling bad. that bitch deserved it.

Lisa and Tayjung give each other a worried look. "7 months!?" they repeat.

I nod my head, walking away.

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I walk into where Jimin's coffin (or whatever you call it) was and I look at the adorable face he once had, that was now dead.

I rub it and then i stared to cry.

I whisper some things to him even though i know he couldn't hear me. mostly i kept on repeating "i love you" and "i miss you." I was getting too emotional.

I squeezed his hand tightly saying my last few goodbyes.

As everyone stood to say their prayers we had individual mini speeches.

I raised my hand to volunteer.

When i walked up, i didn't know what to say at first but i let my mind run free and had to let go of my feelings.

"so," I start to tear up. "uhm... Jimin was very special to me.." trying not to cry i continue. "I was his girlfriend, and... he sacrificed himself to save me, and I.." i started to cry. I sniff, trying to be brave. "I just miss him a lot and I wish he was here with me now. I remember when he used to hug me tightly when i was sad, and kiss my forehead when i was upset about something... he was really the best person i met." I force a smile on my face. "But, now that he's gone it's just.. I didn't get a last chance to tell him i loved him." I make the most stupidest move and probably most embarrassing, too.. "and Jimin you possibly can or can't hear me right now, but.. I miss you and I love you lots. Bogoshipda!" I say the last words as I walked off, letting the next person talk.

pretty much the same thing happened the next day.

and then it was time, it was finally time for him to go for good ..

to get buried.