𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝 | p.jm

twenty six

I drove to where Jimin was getting buried.

Everyone was crowded around and I shuffled to the front.

His mother was making a little speech before he was gone for good.

"Everyone, we're going to bury my son very soon. We will all miss him but he will be in the skies watching over us. God bless and he is in a better place now."

After a few more speeches the coffin he was in (closed), started to go deep into the group slowly.

I couldn't help it.

I broke down into tears.

sobbing my heart away, my eyes were burning and i chocked between sobs. I fell to my knees reaching towards the coffin where it was slowly going down.

I whisper his name every now and then between my cries as i threw a flower, continuing to sob into my palms.

jimin wrapped me in his tight embrace.

"be happy!" he would cheer to me.

I would smile back.

He kept telling me almost everyday when i woke up next to him.

"hey beautiful, good morning" and "you're my everything" or "you're my world."

he hugged me tight when i would cry.

but he was no longer hear telling me his heart melting words.

gone.

he was gone for good.

the last text conversation we had was

me: have a good weekend Jimin!

Jimin: i will, you too! ❤️

me: thanks chimchim~

Jimin: i love you :)

suddenly i remembered... those were his last words. at the hospital when he had only 5 minutes to live..

I sobbed more.

His coat still remains in my room. That night he left it, I would wear it if i felt cold or if i felt lonely.

memories were swirling through my head.

I look up and the coffin was closed off for good. Down in the ground where i could no longer see it.

see him.

The first (and last) thing i read before getting up from the ground was ..

here lies Park Jimin
loved by many others
R.I.P