If you ever read this I'm sure you'd laugh. I know you are still salty about something I said because I remember even the slightest things set you off. And I know if you were reading this you'd disagree but you'd get mad about things you didn't even need to be mad about. I know you are going to do all you can to claim you didn't have feelings for me but at some point I know you did. I could read you like a book. Your intentions with me were not always the best but you made a huge impact on my life. You were my first kiss. The first one I didn't have to pretend around. I remember we had a this weird connection. We'd stay up sometimes at night FaceTiming for hours and I remember I would talk to you about everything. You were easy to talk to and I felt like even though you didn't fully understand some of the things I was going through you still helped me in a way no one else could. You were my best friend. I didn't really start developing feelings until you started to open up more to me. And as much as I hate you and I hate some of the things you do, I know deep down you're an amazing person. You have such a big heart and being around you made me feel like I was real even though I felt dead. You made the world seem like an entire different place when I was around you. And it sounds corny as fuck when I word it like that but I'm serious when I say that you made me look at things differently. We fought a lot and there were times when I thought you'd never talk to me again. And you made me mad and at times where I didn't mind that. As of right now my feelings towards you don't really exist. I don't have any problems with you and the past is the past. We have both changed since then. And I'm happy without you in my life anymore so I don't feel the need to try to fix things. But I do hope that you're doing well because you deserve to be happy. I hope you don't feel the way you used to anymore. I hope you're doing better for yourself like you wanted. I still love you as a person. I still think you're an amazing person despite the way you feel about me. I don't really care how you feel about me because it doesn't matter to me anymore.
