It's crazy to think that out of every guy on this list you are the one that hurt me the most...but maybe I just say this because I am still not fully over you yet. I still wonder goes through that brilliant head of yours. That gorgeous mind. I still love looking at your gorgeous eyes and bright smile whenever you walk past me in the hallways at school.But I also see you put your hand on her thigh. And i see your arms constantly wrapped around her shoulder. I got drunk last night so i could try to get the thought of you from my head so i would not do something stupid that i regret but i miss you still. I want to come and talk to you one day so maybe we can start over but i know that you have already moved on.I know that she is basic and she could not nearly make you as happy as i could.It confuses me why you would cuff someone like her right after the storm happened with us and the current swooped in, fucking everything up. or maybe it was just me fucking everything up as usual.Does she make you as happy as I did? Do you like her as much as you like me? Why are you the way you are? Sometimes i feel like i was not good enough for you. I was so high when we were together and it was not just from the drugs... i felt high when i was with you.like we were on top of everyone. i remember how well we understood each other and now i wish i could understand you more....so the things you did will finally make sense. I miss smoking with you and the things we did in the dark... the things no one knew about. i was so faded and the time with you felt so real like i was with someone i was meant to be with. After all i knew the first day we had seen each other i would be fucking you. I love your attitude and how you talk. You have me under your spell. You do not even know how much power you have over me. I did so much for you that i know i should not have even done but it was you after all. I wonder if you still think about me like i think of you. I wonder if you ever felt like this about me. Please don't forget me.I know we are not on good terms but please try to remember we made each other feel. Please give me a chance to show you the real me even tho i am so fucking scared to show you who that person is. Please do not forget about me. Don't forget.....
