Isn't it weird, how things lead to another? Fear can easily lead to sanity. You fear many things that your mind makes you insane. Fear of being left by everyone. Or of flowers managing to stop growing and trees getting cut down. How would the air we breath get produced? Or if the birds somehow stop chirping, then mornings would be dull.
All this fear leads to sanity. You find yourself thinking of everything. You lay at night asking unanswered questions. You seem pretty normal. Not to other people. You're going insane and there's nothing you can do about it.
This sanity leads to loneliness. People will start to think you're a freak. They will leave. They all leave. Once you start to feel the loneliness, then it leads to pain. You'll feel the pain once you realize you're alone. As if your not living if you don't feel pain.
It can happen at any minute. You can be fine one moment and then any little thing will make you feel the adrenaline of pain. But then how come I don't feel pain when I'm with her?
