Vasilis

★ Dream

Dear Diary,

Does love really exist for people like me, Am I bound to a happily ever after even though my mistakes in the past had been as horrible as murder and yet here I am dreaming of a prince charming that won't even look my way once.

Do we need to experience heartbreak to realise that we aren't worth the extraordinary sensation that comes with love, a love that could take you places even when you've been grounded to one place all your life?

What did I do wrong? How did I end up falling in love just to make the mistake of trusting my family and ruining my life and still love the one person who didn't care about me, who doesn't even see me as a proper friend?

I wish I never listened to Mimosa. Mimosa had single-handedly ruined all of our lives with the click of her fingers not caring that we were her family and that we loved her more than anything in this world. She was our anchor but she hadn't realised that lust was nothing but a fake version of love - she thought she chose love but she chose lust over her family.

Love Sera.

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"Do you love me or do you not?"

Seraphina internally chanted while walking along the lush green grass, hoping to make peace with her mind - wanting to come to a conclusion - does Kaiser love her or not?

As the days go by, her heart turned weak, letting Kaiser trample all over it would definitely make it worse. Seraphina has never been open about her feelings and that had made her invisible, invisible to her family, invisible to her friends and worst of all invisible to Kaiser - who her heart can't let go, her heart holding onto him while Seraphina tries to erase from her heart.

It's been two hours from her encounter with Kaiser and her mind has  been dominant in thinking about his extraterrestrial hazel eyes, the blankness in it chilling her to the core, the crooked smile that left her dazed and stunned and last of all his earth-brown hair fell over his left eye making Seraphina want to run her fingers through and push it away from his amazing russet eyes.

Seraphina's life took a turn five years ago when she realised that she was in love with one of her best friends twin. Kaiser Harrington had been in the same year as her ever since they were twelve but she had only properly met him when she was fourteen and even then she was only acquaintances with him.

Fast-forward a year later and without her knowing she had slowly fallen in love with him, from the mindless conversation they had in their lessons to his two orbs of forests. What didn't help was that he was in all of her lessons, leaving her to fully realise that she loved him more than herself.

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She was ready to fall into a dreamless sleep, ready to dump her European Law notes on her table which was filled with highlighters and random law lecture notes that should be filed away neatly but she hasn't been able to do so as she had been so busy this week.

She had wanted to drop dead the moment she met up with Kayden and Blossom. Kayden being Kaiser's twin had similar features but she could tell the difference from their looks to their personalities.

Blossom had been different, Blossom had met Seraphina the same time Kaiser did but had an instant dislike towards her because Kaiser seemed to be fond of her but over time they realised their similar interests and had become best friends, but Blossom still doesn't know about Seraphina's crush on Kaiser Harrington, the same Kaiser that Blossom had a crush on since she was fourteen.

It was one o'clock in the afternoon but all Seraphina had thought about Kaiser but she hadn't wanted to because she knew that she had been nothing but an acquaintance and his twin brother's best friend.

Seraphina hoped that she had a dreamless sleep, she couldn't bear to see Kaiser's face even in her dreams because she knew there was no hope for them, no hope of Kaiser seeing her more than someone he knows or even getting together and live the dream she has always wanted.

Before she knew it she had fallen asleep, the cold air had made her wrap herself in a cocoon of duvets that were different shades of blue making her sleep on sheets of the clear blue sea, the sun hidden from Seraphina by the silk curtains.

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Seraphina laid on the field of frail flowers, all different shades dancing with the gentle winds leaving her mesmerised, she had been in a trance, staring at the lilac sky as it turned from day to evening, leaving behind hues of azure creating swirls of lilac and azure. Eight-year-old Seraphina had been mindblown by the picturesque scene in front of her.

She turned her head to the side to see her frenemy - he had been the worst person she had met in the world and her eight-year-old-self had wanted so badly to use the forbidden word (idiot) but she knew her parents would be angry and disappointed.

In times like these, they were friends - he had been someone she can truly laugh with and have fun with by playing hopscotch and watch SpongeBob Squarepants with and her eight-year-old self,  was ecstatic to call him her best friend.

She smiled at him, her pink lips blue because of the sour lollipop she had and he returned the smile also with his teal blue lips. He pointed out her the different flowers in the neverending field pretending to know what they were called and used the limited vocabulary they both knew to create a funny little joke they both only knew.

Seraphina noticed the pitch black hair was swept to the side so he can see, presenting Seraphina with his inky black eyes to stand out against his caramel skin, so smooth and blemish free. Seraphina gave him one last dyed blue toothy smile before turning to look at the sky.

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