He chose me? ;Kth {HIATUS}

Pt 34

* Sad part kind of warning :( *

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Y/N POV

Taehyung: Okay, Just remember,  I'll be here for you.

I look at his text over and over again, seeing if my eyes could have been betraying me, I focus on the words he had said to me. I ingrained it into my head, I will never forget his words. I lay down on my bed staring at the dark ceiling little light being penetrated from the window reflecting to the ceiling. I will I stop, my heart and mind tell me two different things, If I were to only do what my heart wants I would have said sorry to him and beg him to not be mad at me after the stunt I had just pulled. My mind telling me to put myself first, and then to let my heart do as it wishes.

That is so hard for me, I had thought. Now only considering that he's probably hurt too, It hurt me so much doing it but I think I had regrettably forgot how the situation might affect him, who's on the other side of the screen, who was utterly shocked from my change of feelings. But for sure my feeling for him is still as large as it was but I needed for my sake, to put it aside if I wanted to achieve a dream.

But I will always have my feeling for him in the back of my hear. It will be hard to control, saddening to do but I hope in the end of all of this, I can win his heart back again, as it could be some time till the next time I'll be able to with him as the one who I love.

Thinking about the situation so much I started to doze off  in thought of him.

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It was morning, waken from my alarm as per usual. I got out of bed but I took a closer look at my phone to find a text from Taehyung.

Taehyung: I love you so much, It hurts me to know that your hurt. Let me be there for you please. I've been through what you've been through so please just let me help you!

Y/N: You can't help Me let me do this on my own!

Taehyung: I'm not giving up

and then within seconds I had gotten out of my bed in my regular clothes when I heard the doorbell ring, I went downstairs to see that my parents weren't home so I had opened the door to see Taehyung's face. greeting me with a smile on his face and red roses in his hands, it seemed so surreal. 

"I'm going to help you ease you mind, let me do that please"

 I had nodded as he slowly took my hand and we walked out of the house, I wasn't quite sure where he was taking me but the feeling of  his hand made me feel so reassured that everything was going to be okay. We had gone to Starbucks the same place that we had gone to before. we sat ourselves down. I noticed no one else was here except for two workers. 

He looked at me with a blank face but serious eyes, it hadn't intimidated me as I continued staring at his now softening dark brown eyes.

"Forget about the entertainment company, I don't want you to go through the pain, just be with me and everything will be okay"

I was quiet taking in what he was telling me, he was texting me about how he will wait for me why is he doing this to me. I already made the decision on focusing on the entertainment and focusing on possibly debuting but oddly, my mind was thinking otherwise saying to leave it and just to be with him, I was actually taking it under consideration until with the words slipping out of my mouth seeming as if I always wanted to say this I responded,

"Will everything really be okay, are you willing to always be there for me, and for me to quit a dream be there if I regret my decision?"

"I'll always be there with me just take my hand and you don't have to worry about it no more, I can help you find something else, I'm telling you this because I care about you"

He held his hand out and I took it we walked outside of Starbucks and he started jogging to another place I hadn't known of where. the roads were quit, and peaceful, we come across a crossing light, I look down to see that my shoe was untied so I slipped my hand out of his grip to tie my shoe for a quick second I look up to see Taehyung still going to cross the street as he slightly is jogging across I look to see the street lights green as he is the the middle of the cross walk, looking over to my left I had saw a white minivan coming full speed in Taehyung's way, I started got up and I was about to step onto the asphalt until I was already too late I watched as the car came crashing onto his body, I trembled in fear, eyes widening in shock as my head was shaking in denial. I look at my hands small spots of blood appeared seeing my hands shaking even more, I closed my eyes and screamed as I started crying.

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I opened my eyes still screaming, tears rushing down my face, as I sit up from my bed. Someone suddenly opened my door, I look trembling, scared as it had felt so real. I see my parents running in and coming up to me, I continue to look at them as the tears kept falling from my face, my mother came up to me and sat down on my bed and gave me a hug as my dad went to the other side of my bed and had rubbed my back for comfort.

"What happened sweetie?"

"I-"

My throat had felt dry feeling as if I couldn't breathe,

"We need to understand what's going on to help"

"i-i-i ju-ju-st had a ni-ni-ghtmere, please go it's fine"

"Are you sure?"

"y-yes please go, thank you"

with that my parents had left my room leaving the door open by a crack I crawled into a ball as the feeling still lingered in my body, It felt so real. I let the rest of the tears fall until there was none left holding onto my knees tightly to my chest. I realized that everything that happened in the dream except for the ending are things that I would be capable of doing giving up everything for him, with his charms and kind words can make me change my mind just like that. Leaving that any other reason why this was for the best.