A Wife Secrifices

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> HAYOUNG <

I couldn't sleep thinking about what mom said. At first I didn't understand why mom was so angry and texted me about this suddenly. But then Sehun show me the news, I acquaint why mom was angry. Everyone knows who I am now. Every single person knows that I am a wife to Sehun. The only news that mom doesn't want anyone to know, now the whole world knows. With the party that Sehun held this Saturday just make me sigh. He said that the party is a must because he wants to introduce me to everyone.

I look at my husband and see that he was sleeping soundly with a smile on his face. This is the only reason why I didn't want to tell him about the text. If he knows, I bet he will be very angry and shout at mom, which I don't want that to happen. I just don't want to add on the fire from the situation that mom and Sehun are having now.

I did want to tell Sehun about this, but when I see the happiness in his eyes, I just keep it to myself.

I kiss his cheek and try moving Sehun's hand slowly from my waist so that I don't wake him up. When I success, I stand up from the bed and walk to the balcony and close the door slowly.

I look at the sky and some part of my heart feel peace. It was cold and the wind was slapping my skin every single time they blow. I didn't bother to cover myself up. I was just in my short and tank top.

I hug myself to prevent from the cold and let the calm and peace consume me.

I close my eyes and remember the day I meet Sehun parents. That time why didn't I realize that mom hates me. Then I remember again why I said yes to marry Sehun even after his mom came and meet me and told me to leave him.

I even wanted to say no when he propose me but when my friend said that I deserve to be happy and be with the person I love, I said yes even I know his mom hate me.

Right there and then, I make it my resolution that I'm going to win mom's heart but I never knew it was this hard.

"Did I make a mistake by marrying Sehun, mom, God? Was saying yes to the proposal was a right decision? I don't want to feel regret mom because I love him so much. But right now, I feel regret and nothing else. Just regret of marrying Sehun but I don't want to feel this."

And today, mom just proves it that I will never win her heart and she wills never ever going to admit me as her daughter-in-law. I remember that she told me that I will regret that this day ever happens and I will hope that our wedding never happens. And today, she proves herself right.

Never in my life have I imagined that I could get this broken and the regret feeling. It makes me think if marrying Sehun was right decision. It makes me think that I should just have run away ignoring that Sehun was in the hospital fighting for his life. I should have never turn back at that time. I should have just ignore it and walk away from his life.

But then I couldn't ignore the sad tone and appeal in dad voice. He was really hopping that I come and save his one and only son. I never feel how a love from a father was before Sehun come in my life. His dad was like my dad. He make me feel how a fatherly love feels like and I wouldn't want to make my father sad so I made my decision and run back to Sehun's life. And seeing Sehun on the hospital bed, laying lifelessly make me broke.

Right now, I just wish that mom is here and hug me, telling me to be strong and she was here for me. Right now I wish that my life wasn't like this. Just if I know who my father is, will my life change? It won't be like this.

I'm not weak. I don't want to show that I'm weak. But it's just that at one point you get really tired of everything happen around you and just want run away from all of this.