How can I not love you? (Student/Teacher)

Seven

I just had dinner at the Hale's and was about to go home even though I didn't want to. I had to return to an empty house and I was so not up for it.
Tonight was really great and I felt this weird tingling inside me everytime Daniel said my name. I know it's wrong. I don't know what is happening to me. I just think it's because he's being so sweet to me the last couple of days. I'll get over it.

We were all sitting on the couch talking about Mr and Mrs Hale going to Australia. "I think I should get going home." I sighed as it was already 11PM. "Oh yeah, I didn't realize it was this late already. I'll walk you home." Daniel responded.

"Oh no you don't have to, its just across the street. Thanks for having me." I said to Victor and Wendy.

"It was lovely having you here. Come give me a hug we'll be leaving tomorrow morning. It was so so nice to meet you." Wendy said and gave me a tight hug.

I walked to the front door with Daniel right behind me. I wanted to say goodbye to him but he walked out of the door before I could turn around. "Come I'll walk you home." I rolled my eyes at him "You can't be serious?"

But he was and he walked me all the way across the street.

"Thanks for today, I needed it." I sighed

"Whats wrong?" He asked probably noticing I was a bit down again.

"I don't know. Ulgh I feel such a mess. I have spent more time with you and your family than I have with my own since we moved here, and that is so fucking frustrating. And here I am standing outside this huge house about to get in and seeing that no one is home. I'm 17 for fuck sake and it's like I'm living on my own." I say frustrated

Daniel didn't say anything but just pulled me into a tight hug. After a while he let go of me and kissed my forehead. "I'm very proud of how you handle all this Josephine, keep that in mind. Goodnight sweetheart." He looked into my eyes and walked away.

What is he doing to me? I turned around to my door as I heard footsteps behind me. I saw it was Daniel "Daniel wha..." I couldn't finish my sentence as his lips crasched into mine. He pushed me against the door with both his hands on my cheeks. For a moment I was shocked but I kissed back, that tingling inside me felt like it was gonna explode. He pulled back "You have no idea how bad I wanted to do that." And he walked away.

What the fuck just happened?!

-

It was friday morning and I was debating whether I should go to school or not. Yesterday I called in sick, not wanting to see Daniel. I was so confused after that kiss. I didn't know what to do with that feeling inside me, I can't be in love with my teacher.

I was still laying in bed as my mom walked into my bedroom. "How are you feeling Josephine?" I decided to skip school just for one more day. "Not good, I'll stay home for 1 more day okay?" She nodded

"Your dad will be home tonight or tomorrow morning. I'll be home tonight around 9. Atleast I'll try. If something is wrong please call me okay? I love you."

"Bye mom" and I turned around in my bed.

-

It was 6PM already and I had watched Netflix all day, so I decided to take a quick bite and go out for a walk to get some fresh air.

I put on my shoes and grabbed my earphones to play music.

I had walked for over 15 minutes and was on my way back home. When I walked into the street I saw Daniel walking out of 'his' house to his car. Fuck, I needed to hide. I don't want to talk to him, but I was too late.
"Josephine!" He yelled. I pretended I didn't saw him before and tried to look surprised. "Hi Dr. Hale." I said trying to keep this formal.

"So we're back to Dr. Hale now. Fuck I knew I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm so sorry Josephine, I should've kept my feelings to myself."

"I'm sorry Daniel, but I don't know what to expect. My feelings are a mess and I'm scared I'm just a pathetic girl to you, who you can talk into bed with you and then let her drop. It won't be the first time that happens to me."

"Josephine." He sighed "I'm so sorry, but you should know that you are not pathetic and I would never, never, ever let you drop. That guy who did is such a fool."

"Ever since the first day I saw you I couldn't keep my eyes from you, I know it's so damn wrong but I just can't. I don't want to put all of this on you with everything that going on already, so just forget it okay?" He continued.

"What if I don't want to forget?" I whispered.

"Then don't." He hugged me. "Would you like to come in?" He said pointing at his house.

"I'm sorry Daniel but I need to clear my head. Besides my mom will be home tonight, she says." I laughed trying to clear the air. "See you on monday Daniel." And I walked to my house and opened the door as soon as I was inside I broke down into tears.

My feelings were so messed up. I felt alone, I missed Orlando, I missed the old me but I knew I couldn't go back to that person. And now this weird feeling inside me for my fucking teacher.

What the hell is wrong with me?