How can I not love you? (Student/Teacher)

Twenty-one

It was sunday morning and I decided to make my mom some breakfast. After my dad left last night things had been though, I was laying in my bed as I heard my mom crying all night.

I walked upstairs to my mom's room with the breakfast. "Goodmorning mom, I made you some breakfast." I smiled even though she probably couldn't see me in the dark.

"Thank you Josephine." She flipped on the lights and smiled at me. I could see she was faking it, her eyes were still puffy and red from crying. I climbed down under the covers with her as we started eating.

"I never wanted this Josephine, you know that right?"

"Ofcourse I do mom. It's for the best, I don't want you to be unhappy."

She smiled and pulled me into a side hug.

-

Me and my mom had been laying in bed all day to watch movies. I knew she was hartbroken but she kept herself strong. She was currently changing in her room.

"I'm gonna go honey, I'll see you tomorrow okay?"

"You're crazy."

My mom decided to go to her work anyway. She had a night shift at the hospital and even though I told her to call in sick, she didn't listen.

"It'll help to keep my mind off this okay? See you tomorrow."

"I love you mom." I say as I hugged her goodbye.

I decided to watch some netflix before I'll head to bed but just as I wanted to start I got a text.

Daniel:
Hey :)

Me:
Hi!

Daniel:
I saw your mom leaving, are you alone?

Me:
Yeah, she's doing a night shift. :/
Anyway how are your sisters?

Daniel:
They are back to their own houses again. It's very silent in this house all of a sudden ;)

Me:
I'll bet it was a better atmosphere than in here

Daniel:
Why what's going on? :(

Me:
Come over please?

Within 2 minutes I heard a knock on my door and I rushed over to open it. He immediately pulled me into a hug before walking to the couch.

"So what's going on? You worried me."

I sat next to him and told him the whole story. From back in Orlando, to the fights, to my mom telling me everything and to yesterday evening confronting my dad.

The whole time he kept silent and just listened to me without asking any questions.

"That's pretty heavy Josephine."

"Yeah tell me about it."

"You don't seem hurt though?"

"I have no idea why I'm not sad. Like I'm literally a baby who cries over everything. But for some reason I'm more angry at him than sad that he is leaving."

"You're not a baby, it's okay to show your feelings. It's one of the things I love most about you." He says as he strokes my upper arm.

Loves most about me? What does that say? He thinks about me as much as I do about him?

"I'm just angry with him, that's all." I shrugged.

He didn't respond to that but just pulled me into his lap and started netflix.

We sat like this for almost an hour when I felt myself drifting off to sleep. "You're not gonna sleep now are you?" He joked

"I'm just tired." I mumbled.

He turned off the tv and carried me upstairs into my bedroom.

"Why are you like this?" I ask him all of a sudden

"Like what?"

"Just so nice and caring for me? What did I ever do for you to be like this to me?"

He sat on the side of my bed. "I'm just fascinated by you. The way you are, the way you look, the way you act. You're just one hell of a person Josephine, and I can't take my eyes off you as soon as I see you. I want to take care of you."

I smiled at him and layed down in my bed. "Stay with me please?" I asked him.

"Always." He layed down next to me and grabbed my waist to pull me closer.

Damn, those hands, that chest... I loved laying next to him, feeling him against me.

-

"You're not going anywhere Josephine. You're mine."

"No I'm not, leave me alone."

He walked closer and put his hand on my cheek. "But don't you understand? You have to do as I say, or else.."

I saw that he was holding a knife when he stabbed in my leg. I yelled out in pain as he just laughed. "Let this be a lesson for you, honey. You're mine and when you disobey me, there will be consequences."

"I'll never be yours." I spitted at him

He raised his knife again and ....

I woke up covered in sweat and heavy breathing. Thank god, it's just a dream. He can't be back.

"Josephine, jeez. You scared the hell out of me, I couldn't wake you up."

"Don't worry about it, it was just a dream." I said like it was nothing, even though I was still breathing like I had just ran a marathon.

"Just a dream? It sure as hell didn't seem like it, talk to me. You were all screaming and kicking, I couldn't wake you, it scared the hell out of me."

I saw him looking at my hand that I had covered on my leg. I quickly removed it and took a deep breath.

"It was just a dream about something that happened back in Orlando, it's not a big deal. I'm sorry for waking you up."

"Don't be, I'll be right here you know. That what happened is over and it's not going to happen again okay?"

If he only knew...

-

The rest of the night I hadn't bothered to go back to sleep. This is the first time I'm having these nightmares about him. I'm so scared he'll come find me...

"Hey." I heard Daniel say with his husky morning voice. Damn I love that voice.

I turned around so I was now facing him. "Goodmorning." I smiled looking at his lips, those damn lips.

"Did you catch any sleep?"

"No" I sighed. He pulled me closer and gave me a kiss on my cheek.

"You can talk to me about it you know? I'm a good listener."

"I know you are, I'm just not ready yet to tell someone."

He nodded and kissed me. There was no lust in it, just passion and kindness.

The way his lips moves against mine gives me shivers. It's just so perfect, maybe too perfect.

I pulled back and looked at the clock.
"For fuck sake!" I yelled

"What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" He asks in confusion

I pointed at the clock and as soon as he saw it he jumped out of bed. "Shit, my class starts in 20 minutes."

"Mine started 30 minutes ago." I sighed

"I'll make something up for you, don't worry."

He gave me a kiss and left my room so I could change. I walked downstairs and grabbed an apple real quick.

"Come I'll drive you to school."