Step Brother (Luke Hemmings)

chapter 9

Ivy's Pov:

I've been avoiding Luke as much as possible, after what's happened... I dont trust myself around him. I know it's wrong, there's no doubt about that... and thats why I know I have to move on.

Doing what we did, behind everyone's backs... it's not right. I really like Mikey and I want things to work out for my mom and Andrew. I just wish it didn't feel so right.

"AND YOU DIDN'T THINK TO TELL ME BEFORE I SAID YES!?" My mom screams.

I hop off my bed and race to the stairs, she and Andrew are standing in the living room. Mom looks absolutely livid.

"Now hunny, please calm down. It's not such a big deal..." Andrew Explains.

"NOT A BIG DEAL?? NOT A BIG DEAL!? YOU ASKED ME TO MARRY YOU KNOWING THIS AND YOU NEVER THOUGHT TO TELL ME!?" She exclaims.

So much for my mom being happy, why are guys such pigs. What did he lie about?

"What's going on?" Luke whispers joining me. I sneak a peak at him and quickly avert my gaze, speaking in a low whisper.

"They're fighting, your dad has been lying to my mom ... and she just found out." I sigh.

"I didn't wanna ruin this! I love you and I want to marry you! It doesn't change how I feel about you." Andrew exclaims.

"A RELATIONSHIP IS NOT BUILT ON LIES ANDREW! It may not change how you feel about me, but it's certainly changed how I feel about you." She storms out with a huff.

She's right...I have to tell Mikey about Luke and I... it's the right thing to do. I head back to my room and call Mikey, I ask him to meet here and come up to my room.

I don't know how he's gonna take it, and I understand if he never wants to see me again... I should have told him much sooner.

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"Hey Ivy!" Mikey knocks, walking in.

"Hey, Mikey..." I say nervously.

"Is something wrong?" He asks concerned. "You haven't changed your mind about us... have you?"

"God, no!" I smile reassuringly, "there's just something I need to tell you and... I dont know how to say it."

"Just say it and then we'll figure out whatever happens next."

I tell him everything, he doesn't take it too lightly... and I hate hurting him, but a relationship isn't built on lies.

"Please say something, Mikey..." I plead.

"He's your step-brother! You've been fucking around with your stepbrother! Are you kidding me right now!? I've been nothing but loyal to you!" He exclaims.

"I know! You've been amazing to me and I never wanted to keep it from you! I was afraid of how you'd react. I never meant for anything to happen with him, I swear!"

"That doesn't excuse the fact you did it, Ivy! How am I supposed to be with you... without thinking about you being with him, here, every single day!"

"Calm down Mike." Luke interrupts.

"You have no right to tell me what to do right now, Luke!" He barks.

"She's not to blame! I kept pursuing her! She's cut me off time and time again. She says no. She pushes me off. She pushes me away! Because she cares about you!" Luke exclaims.

"I don't care, whatever we had Ivy... it's over... and as for you and me Luke... all we are now is bandmates." He exclaims and storms out.

"I'm sorry Ivy... I tried... I'll leave you alone from now on if that's what you want. I'll do it cause I care and I shouldn't keep you from being happy.." Luke whispers.

I've always been one to be impulsive, not thinking before acting. I thought I got rid of that habit... and I was gonna tell him to leave but what I did instead...

I pressed my lips to his, everything I've been holding back, all the feelings I've held inside. I kick the door closed and lock it as he pushes me up against the wall.

I wanted to tell him we shouldn't do this, I wanted to pull away, tell him to stop but what came out of my mouth was...

"I want you, Luke..." I whimper into his ear.

He takes that as the go-ahead to take complete control. He moves us to the bed, pulling his shirt over his head and mine over mine.

No matter what I do, I can't keep myself away from him or the feelings I have. Our parents are weeks away from getting married and we're... being intimate. Some part of me wonders if the wedding might be off... and what that could mean for the two of us.

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Lukes soft breathing keeps me awake, and you'd think I'd be happy that I'd finally had what I craved for so long... but the knots in my stomach aren't the result of absolute bliss, but utter regret.

I hear the soft click of a bedroom door and I get up to check it out, I slip out so not to let anyone see Luke in my bed. I head downstairs and see my mom by the door with a suitcase.

"Mum?" I whisper, "Where are you going?" I ask curiously.

"Oh, Ivy... I'm going to stay at a hotel for a bit... go on back to bed." She whispers.

"Why mum? What's going on?" I ask confused.

"Nothing... nothing, just go on back to bed.." She sighs.

"Don't lie to me mum." I shake my head. "I'm not a kid anymore. No more lies, remember?"

A horn honks and my mom grabs her suitcase.

"I called off the wedding..." She whispers and walks out the door before I can say another word.

I walk back up the stairs, my mind running a million thoughts a minute. I climb back in bed with luke... but can't sleep. So much happened today and all I wanna know is why my mom called off the wedding... and what Andrew lied about.

I'm not sure how I feel... I wanted my mom to be happy. I wanted her to be with Andrew but am I relieved that I dont have to feel guilty about Luke and I?  And what about Mikey? Minutes after he stormed out... I slept with the person I had just tried to reassure Mikey I didn't want.

I'm feel so sick to my stomach, how could I be such a horrible person! I've hurt Mikey, Andrews hurt my mom and I slept with my almost stepbrother... after what happened!

What have I done?