『The Rhythm Of Despair』

1|Strange

Am I asleep or am I awake? A question I always ask to myself.

Usually when I close my eyes I feel alone and cold kept in a corner in a dark, evil world. With whispers from who even knows what and calls from strange beings. Parents and their children with faces you wouldn't want to see. With night always by your side, you always wonder, when will the sun rise? Well, the sun is long forgotten.

It's strange.

I feel someone patting their hand against my shoulder which makes my eyes open.

I look at who it was, Juleka, my only sister.

"Um.. Hi?"

"You've been asleep-" she looks at me, trying to figure out what she will say next. "- I mean.. Whatever you're doing.. Are you done now?"

I shrug my shoulders and then nod, "yup! Done and dusted.. As they say."

"You should go on and play some guitar."

I turn my head from her and look at my room which was upstairs, where my guitar was lying. I look back at her.

"Should I?"

"Go on!" She says. "You can do something fun for a while."

"Sure, why not?"

I turn away from her and jump out of my seat. I walk towards the stairs, I go right up and walk into my room.

I see my black and white electric guitar on my bed.

I smile.

I walk in and sit on my bed whilst crossing my legs.

I prop up the guitar in a relaxing position and start to play. I strum the guitar strings with my fingers.

I wonder what Dad would've done, if he was at home and saw me playing? He probably would have grabbed my guitar out of my hand and smashed it on the floor.

I shake my head at these poisonous and sickening thoughts.

I just want to play. I want to do something in life which would make me smile.

But Dad won't let me. It's strange, isn't it?