Surviving Long Distance (ON HOLD)

Chapter 13

We sat on the sea shore. He wrapped his arm around my back and I rested my head on his chest. We're sitting in silence only by the sound of waves.. I could still feel the warmth on my cheek.

"Aaron?" I broked the ice.

"Um hmm?"

"Where did you disappeared after the..... funeral?"

"Oh.. forget it."

"Tell me please?"

He sighed and began "My dad came to visit me.. he never does that.. Somethings on his mind.. I don't know what."

"It's a good thing right?"

"No! Leave this. It'll just ruin my mood."

"Okay." I looked at him, he was gazing at the horizon and the look of him just made me lose my mind.

"What?" he said looking at me and smiled. I smiled as an answer and drifted my gaze to the sea.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yep."

"Um..... how did your.... uh... mother died?"

I felt his body stiffening up and he pulled his hand away.

Oh no... I shouldn't have ask this! Shit shit shit!

He stood up and stepped away from me..

I'M THE MOST INSENSITIVE PERSON ALIVE!

"She didn't die a natural death.." he whispered.

I went near him and placed my hand on his back.

"What do you mean?"

No answer. He just kept gazing at the sea and he was trying his best not to look at me.

"What Aaron?"

After his reply.. I was glued on my place.

"She...... killed herself."

Suddenly, it felt harder to breathe! I couldn't look at him. I don't know where was I staring. I lost my senses. Why on the earth I asked that question!! I'm so mean!!! I'm completely..... I hate myself! I just hate myself so much right now! I wanted the ground to crack up and swallow me at the moment! FUCK!

As the water washed my feet, I was brought back. I looked at him and saw a tear escaping his eyes and slowly streaming down his cheek. My eyes started getting wet too.

I'm so selfish! I never knew behind this 'always joking around' and 'always lightening my mood up' face, there was a Aaron, full of pain... he never shared his feelings.. maybe because I never asked him about it.. I'm so selfish!

I saw him swiftly wiping his cheeks like he didn't wanted me to see him like..... this. I placed my hands on both his shoulders making him face me. I pushed his shoulders down and he sat on his knees and I sat on mine as well. I don't know what to do right now, so I hugged him..

"You have my shoulder to cry.." I whispered.

He didn't started shaking or something but he was crying because I could feel my hairs getting wet. I tighten my embrace and he let go off me and he stood up

"Let's go."

I really wanted to know what happened back then. Why on the earth his mother took this kind of decision. Why she became so selfish that she left her 7 year old kid alone! She killed herself and she killed that innocent child too. I don't know what kind of childhood Aaron lived. It really kills me to know that of all the people, I'm the one who brought this painful memory back.