New Start, New Life (Dolan twins) part1

Falling illusions *17*

Did you ever have that feeling?

When you climb your way up the roller coaster? it seemed like it would never end like you would stay there for ages staying in a constant repetitive state.slowly inching your way to the top, forgetting your present and knowing your future. and then you reach the top and everything was perfect cloaked in disguise, a mere illusion and just when you've believed it to be true.....

                        You fall...   

I was never the dating type nor was I the type to date my admirers brother, who am I kidding this was never even a type that crossed my mind. Grayson and Ethan were like my family, I never wanted to be anything but a good and loyal friend. And after the night we all had I now felt like I was becoming a huge distraction and another problem. 

my phone buzzed frantically on the wooden drawer next to me I quickly grabbed it to silence the ringing, it was 3:30 am, and I was wide awake. I slightly unfolded the covers and looked back over my shoulder to the floor and there he was fast asleep still snoring, still at peace. I then undid the sheets and sat on the edge of the bed. I didn't know how Grayson could just sleep knowing I may have just ruined their lives, that they would have been better off without me. I then started to make my way out of the room and down the hall. I pass the guest room and pause. I take a couple steps back and open the door. And just like Grayson, Ethan is still sleeping, still snoring..... still breathing.

I close the door leaving a crack and make my way downstairs to the kitchen, I grab a bottle of water and pull out a chair.

'well I'm glad Ethan's okay. I don't know what I would do if he wasn't. hell I don't know what Grayson would've done if Ethan wasn't okay.' , I think to myself

 'But I don't think me and Grayson kissing will help the situation either. But did Ethan really mean what he said to me? does he really like me? do I like Ethan?.... do I even like Grayson?'

footsteps approach the kitchen and I snap out of my daze. Ethan slowly appears around the corner cupping his stomach and limping.

"Hey Macho man! how ya feeling?", I say sympathetically 

"Like I just got hit by a bus.", He replied "but I'm glad I woke up to see your beautiful face" he smiled

I got up and helped Ethan I pulled a chair right next to mine and sat him down. We both stopped and our eyes met, I could feel every hair on my body stand as we held each other. we were so close, I could feel his heart beating like a million drums and his eyes held my breath. 

"uhhhm" I snapped myself out pulling away to the fridge "so how did you sleep?"

"I barely did. I woke up and felt like someone was watching me so I pulled myself to my feet and well here I am!", his arm stretched in a wide gesture.

I smile and quickly turn my head down as I blushed " and what about you?', he asked

I turned my head up curiously

"you couldn't sleep or are you a zombie?" 

"I couldn't sleep... I was just in a.... really important thought process and I didn't realize what time it was.", I lied "but you should take some meds", I said reaching into the cabinet and putting it on the table. "plus I should really be getting to bed..... Goodnight!", I said turning away

"Kiana! wait."

I turn back in surprise. "oh sorry you probably need water right?" I say nervously digging in the fridge looking for one.

he then grabs my waist and flips me to face him, I stare at him in shock. he places a hand on my cheek and pulls me in slowly. his breath was invigorating and he pulled  his face to mine and kissed me. his lips soft and addicting. I wanted more.

'oh no!'

*AUTHORS NOTE* Hey guys comment down below who you think Kiana should be with or if you guys have other Ideas. it's been a while but I'm back to my normal self thank you. hope you enjoyed :)