You're Not Who I Thought You Were: Jai Brooks fanfic

Chapter 14

I woke up on the cold, hard tile floor with the towel still wrapped around my weak body. I couldn't find the strength to get up and I didn't want to get up. I felt as if there was a hole in my heart and felt sick to my stomach. I lifted my head and saw that the door was still closed and the light was on. The house seemed quiet and I gathered all my strength to get up. I wobbled to the door and opened it slowly. the house was dark and no lights were on. It was probably the middle of the night. I crept slowly to Jai's room and saw him and Luke were sound asleep. I quickly and quietly found some pajamas and went to the living room. It was storming out hard still and I clicked on the t.v. Nothing but static appeared and all I did was stare. I felt a tear slip from my eye and then another. I wanted to sleep with Jai but was afraid and I don't even know why. Instead I just curled up on the couch and tried to sleep. I thought about what would happen if I just left. Left for good. I have no other family that I know and I have no friends that I can trust.

I might just leave. Leave forever and see what will happen. Maybe, just maybe

I fell into a deep sleep and dreamt about me leaving. Of course it was like how it always is. Everyone notices you're gone and feels bad. Everyone blames it on themselves. Everyone cries at the thought of you finally being gone, but instead of regretting what I have done, I am happy again. I'm in a world where nothing can hurt me. Where I can't hurt me. It felt so real and I didn't know what to think.

I heard footsteps coming down the hall and someone turned off the t.v. I fluttered my eyes open and saw Luke standing there with tired eyes and a horrifying completion. His hair was a mess and he walked like a zombie. He notices me on the couch and walked over. I quickly shut my eyes and layed still. Luke sat next to me and stroked my leg. He grabbed a blanket from the chair and layed it down on top of me. I was utterly confused but just stayed still and quiet. He got up and I assumed he went back to his room. I got up and went to Luke and Jai's room. I saw Jai still asleep and decided to lay with him. He looked so calm and....and happy when he slept. Luke must have went to the bathroom or Beau's room because he wasn't in here. I wrapped the blanket around me and snuggled into Jai's chest. He wrapped and arm around me and I layed there quietly.

I don't know what to do. I know Jai is still hiding something from me and I don't know if I can believe him when he says he loves me. I will find out what he's hiding no matter what. I heard a toilet flush across the hall and Luke came back into the room. I pretended to sleep and Luke and Jai started talking.

"Is she asleep?" Luke asked.

"Yeah, sound asleep. Why?" Jai asked.

"I wanted to talk to you about the c.d Beau has."

"What about it?"

"Are we gonna send it out to people."

It was silent for a little bit and Jai stoked my head.

"You know, I've been thinking about this a lot and I think we should just get rid of it." Jai said.

"What? Why? This was your idea and now your just going to throw it all away!?"

"She doesn't deserve this. She hasn't done anything bad to us so why should we?"

"Wow, so now your all Mr.Good guy all of a sudden? You told me you were just gonna use her like all the others. Why is it all of a sudden you change?"

"Just get out." Jai's voice was full of anger but he controlled it.

"What the hell, you can't tell me to get out of my room. Maybe you should take that slut of yours and leave. I'm done with you. If you won't do it, I'll do it myself." Luke walked out of the room and Jai instantly jumped off the bed, causing me to fall off.