Goodbye, Chan Yeol
"Let's have sex."
I don't know what came to me when I asked him to have sex with me, but there's only one thing that is clear to me - I love him. Out relationship is unconventional, being in the spotlight we must act as if there's nothing between us. We don't want to ruin the others, we don't want to ruin ourselves.
"If we do it, we won't call it sex, it'll be making love."
I smiled fondly at him. I reached up his face to caress to it gently. My eyes watered and I looked down. There's this twisting feeling inside of my body. I feel suffocated, I can't breathe. I feel tired, I feel used. I feel alone.
"I love you, Yeol. Do you know that? I love you so damn much that I'm willing to do the craziest thing to protect you."
He lifted my chin to get a better view of my face. I tried to fake a smile but failed so. I'm so tired. And it hurts me so much. I tiptoed and reached for his lips. I kissed him with everything that I have.
"I love you is not enough to show you how much I feel for you, Baek. You are my life, without you I'm just a husk."
I felt tears fell from my eyes. He wiped it away and he leaned down to capture my lips in another scorching kiss. I sighed as I tasted his sweet and addictive taste. I closed my eyes to surrender my will to him.
"Love me, Chan Yeol. Love me and don't let me go."
Our forehead touched and he smiled kissing my eyes, my nose and my lips. I encircled my arms around him, clinging for dear life. He trapped me inside his arms, holding my waist tightly. Pressing me against his hard body.
Tears fell down from my eyes as he carried me inside the room. Tonight, I will love him. Tonight, I will give him body. Tonight, I will offer myself. Tonight, I surrender my being.
Just for tonight.
Only for tonight.
Let me be with him.
He laid me down on his king sized bed, still kissing the breath out of bodies. My hands went up to his hair, his soft black hair, tugging it as he devoured my mouth. His tongue plunging inside of my cavern tasting, feeling, loving me.
I moaned as he grinned our lower halves. I gripped his hair tightly earning a deep grain from him. I was damn turned on. He hissed as I pulled away from his mouth to rain kisses all over his face.
I cupped his face and stared at his eyes. His eyes that shone with love and desire. A burning passion that belongs to me.
"Love me, please, love me now."
I kissed his lips once again allowing him to dominate me once again. We pulled breathless and we stared at each other, smiling stupidly. He touched my bruised lips and smiled.
"I love you."
He slowly removed my shirt as I unbuckled his belt. Hissing when I reached for his zipper and cupping his hard groin. I palmed him, caressing softly as he continued to to removed my clothes.
I moved my hips up and he tugged my pants and briefs away. He took my length within his hand and stroked it up and down. I moaned loudly as my precum covered the head of my groin.
His length twitched under my touch and he pulled away earning a groan of whine from me. He smiled evilly and stood up to removed the remaining clothes that covers his body from my naked eye.
His hard length jumped to life as it was freed from the confines of his tight boxer. I licked my lower lip to show him how much I wanted him. I sat up and took my still leaking length between my hand. I stroked myself in front of him, moaning and groaning, closing my eyes.
I felt his presence in front of me and when I opened my eyes he immediately put me inside his hot mouth. Sucking, licking, loving me. I held his hair as he continued his conquest.
"Ah~~"
He raised his two fingers in front of my mouth and I gladly took it in covering it with my saliva. He looked up at me and smiled. I smiled back.
"Lay back, baby, and open your legs wide for me. I will have to prepare you."
I did what he told me to do. Laying back on the bed, spreading my legs wide for him to see all of me. I felt his finger which is coated with my saliva teasing my hole. I twitched and moaned as he slipped it pass the tight ring of muscle.
"Mo-more."
I begged of him and he complied. He pushed his finger further inside, moving in and out, up and down. I continued to cry in pure pleasure. Wanting more of what he could give. More of what he offers.
"Ch--an Yeo---l."
"Baby, you're so tight. You are sucking my finger all the way in."
Using his other hand he caught my length and stroked it with the same rhythm of the hand he used to pleasure my hole.
"M-ore, pleaseeee!"
He gladly complied again, pushing another finger inside to scissor my hole. I moaned and groaned and cried in pleasure. I moved my hips against his intruding fingers and was rewarded when I came all over my stomach. He pulled his fingers out of me and stood up. I looked at him through my hooded vision.
He stroked his meaty length in front of me, smiling at me. I opened my legs wider for him to see all of me.
"Please."
I called him and he walked towards the bed. He positioned his length on my opening and pushed it little by little. I gripped the sheets on my side and moaned. Pain and pleasure. Love and desire.
"I love you, Byun Baek Hyun."
He pushed all of him and hovered me with his body. He intertwined our fingers together and settled between my thighs. He pressed his lips against mine and muttered how much he loves me.
Tonight I gave him myself.
We moved against the rhythm of our love until we reached the stars. We showered one another with warmth that enveloped us.
And as we moved as one my tears rained down my face. My heart shattered into millions of pieces. My soul left the insides of my body.
Leaving me alone.
Leaving me broken.
Leaving me miserable.
Goodbye, Chan Yeol.
**
"SM Entertainment released a statement confirming the dating rumours of SNSD' Taeyeon and EXO's Baek Hyun."
Reading it over and over again, I cried my heart out. After offering myself to save him from all the pains of this cruel world all I got in return is his undying hate.
"Fuck you, Baek. I wish I never met you. You let me believe that you love and now you break me. I hate you."
Tears streamed down my face continuously.
It's for the best of everyone. I only wanted to protect him and the whole group. I only wanted him to be safe from the evil stares of everyone. From the dark thoughts of everyone.
Lies to tell.
Tears to cry.
Souls to shatter.
Hearts to break.
"I hate you, Baek Hyun."
I smiled weakly, nodding my head.
"Goodbye, Chan Yeol."
The End.
Note: unedited.
