Deep Thoughts

The Void

There is a void inside me i can feel it
It grow bigger everyday
I feel like it's taking over
I feel like I'm going insane
I can hear their voices calling my name
Telling me to let go
Telling me that life isn't worth this much pain
To just get it over with
To rid myself of this pain
Not psychical pain
It's also not mental pain either 
It's more emotional pain
That is all I'm feeling
And it won't go away
I can't bring myself to get out of bed
To eat or drink
To sleep
To even try to look nice anymore
I have just given up on everything
Like trying to focus in conversations
Or even talking in general
I tried to avoid human interaction at all costs
Because the fear is overwhelming
The fear of that one question "Are you okay?"
That question sent goosebumps down my body
Because they already knew the answer
I mean you could tell my emotional pain was taking a toll on me psychically I look awful
I look like someone who hasn't eaten or slept
Or even took care of themselves at all
So when people ask that question
That's when I would have to come to terms with the fact that this void inside me is winning
And I didn't want to do that
So a wonder to myself why do I continue to live my life in pain when I could be numb in death