What we Used to Be

Chapter 6

Sophie's POV

        Since the argument between Nash and Cam no one has spoke or left their rooms for anything other than food. For me; you are probably wondering, I took the not leaving to a new level. Most of the time I stopped eating because I didn't want to run into any of the boys downstairs. I have started to get back where I started with 'the note'. The thing is I was already anorexic then the boys started to help and I got to a state of okay but everything was not gone like I expected. It was hidden behind the fake smile that I used to call my life and I didn't even know that it was hidden. Did you know anorexia can be a bitch like that! With all that talk I kind of just want you to know the way I am feeling right now. What I'm thinking is that Nash and the guys only brought me up so I could crash back down. Now I am falling harder than I ever have. My new promise is not to let Nash or the other boys of magcon (A/N: I know they are splitting/split now but it's a book. Make believe, fiction. It's their name so deal with it ;) ) back into my life. They all want to hurt me. I make that my mantra in my daily meditation for a few minutes to get it into my head.Then I was interrupted...

A/N: This next POV is covering the same time period but someone else's thoughts and then it will lead back to the same time spot.

Nash's POV

        I was thinking how all of this is so messed up. You are probably thinking it's all my fault and you should have thought of this before you messed up. The thing is I'm her big brother and now her 'guardian' and it's in the name guard; I'm supposed to protect her but I keep tearing things down between us especially after we finally built our bridges back after she went through the rough times in the past. I believe the worst of all this is I haven't only ruined the relationship (siblings relationship. don't start thinking all Nashty) between her and I but as well as some very nice people who could help her when I'm not there to make things okay. I decided to stop throwing a pity party for myself and fix some things.

*meet in same time again*

Matt's POV

        We all heard Nash yelling for us to come down for a family meeting. Once we all got there he started talking. All I heard was Blah "things are bad between us" blah blah blah "we should make up" blah blah and he kept talking, on and on, and on, and on. What I never realized was how ratchet all of the guys were without getting ready or doing anything for a long time. On the other hand Sophie looked like her normal self... all put together.

        When I stopped zoning out I heard everyone yelling at me to pay attention. Then Nash made the puma face and said "these beautiful eyes are just so easy to get lost in." Then everyone was laughing. I played along and sarcastically said "ha ha ha... you are all sooo funny." Then everyone stopped after a while and continued talking. After that I decided I shouldn't zone out anymore but they talk for so long about the least interesting stuff to me so it is very easy to zone. They covered all the things they were upset about and talked it out and then all the guys bro hugged at the end.

        Sophie didn't talk most of the time and just sat there listening but not saying a word. We  all apologized to her and she just said "okay" with no emotion in her voice. I think that was the worst she wasn't even upset but she just gave up on us and ignored any time we tried to start a conversation with her. After Nash tried for a long time to get her to talk to all of us like she used to he told us family meeting was done and he wanted to talk to Sophie alone about some things.

        We all said okay and left.

Sophie's POV

        Once all the boys left I spread out on the couch and just sat there. He started chatting on and on so I zoned out on most of what he was saying just like I did when all the guys were here. I think that could be my special wizard trick I had because it worked like a charm and I could be in my own world for a little bit and I think that is the best possible thing.

        Nash started to pick up that I didn't care and got me to zone out. So I snapped at him "What do you fucking want Nash?!" I basically yelled. He got all mad and said "A) you can not sware B)I am your guardian so don't talk to me like that and C) all I wanted was for you to talk to me and see what I have to say. " I know he meant to be responcible and a nice brother but all I wanted was for him and his friends to leave us alone. So I decided why not let him know that. "You know what Nash why don't I just call you queen bee since you have your ass stuck up your head so high. I can do whatever I want anyway. Last of all I just want to know what you want to tell me so I can leave." I will dismiss your rude tone of voice and disrespectful words but I feel that you have not been socializing as much here so I signed you up for dance classes. They are at the Joffery Ballet Center and you will have classes there daily. The schedule is Monday-Friday 8am-6pm daily." I screemed "Whatever Nash, but your not my parent and you will never be" as I ran up the stairs.

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