~Jaspvid OneShots~

A "happy" Face

A\N heyy new chapter for once this one is not a part two of anything this is an actual oneshot so Enjoy
Warnings: just get some tissues
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Davids Pov

I drink more coffee as the night passes its 4 am
And i cant sleep I dont know the last time i could sleep

My pills do nothing
The nightmares get worse
The nightmares are real and thats the worst part

No the worst part is

Knowing what i did to him
To jasper

It replays in my head every second of the day

And i cant do anything about it
I loved him
And i killed him

It was my fault

The fall was what ended his life

Are life together

I get up to refill the coffee
And take my "happy" pills

My docter knows they dont work but he forces me to take them anyway

Im just so tired of this life
Living breathing
Forcing myself to be happy
To smile

For gwens sake for the campers

For him

He died because of me and i have to live with that
I force myself not to cry

I only stayed here to be near him
Because i know if i didnt stay i wouldve died

But i know sooner or later i will die anyway

Its around 5 30 am now

Ill wake up the campers at 6 30 am

I think of this whole messed up fate so much i dont even cry sometimes

I pretend to be happy everyday
Just so i can make jasper happy
Its my fault hes dead

I stayed so max and the others dont go through the same thing

I just want them to be happy i dont deserve to be happy anymore

I smile but my eyes are dead

Looking back on it now its kind of ironic the whole thing

I was a rude selfish kid thats why jasper died
At this point im in tears

Max is a troubled kid i dont want him or anyone else end up in the same fate as me

I just want to make him happy

5 45 am
Its the same routine everyday

I finnish my 7th cup of coffee
Get dressed
Tie his shirt around my neck

And head out the door

And put on a "happy" face
For the campers

I look happy but my heart isnt in it

Gwen doesnt care max doesnt not even the founder of this place

I just want everyone to be happy

Maybe camp cambell shouldve pushed me in the pit
Instead of jasper

Then maybe someone would be
happy

Im sorry jasper

I force myself to stop crying

I "smile" walk out the door wake up the campers to start the day

I yell "WAKE UP CAMPERS GET DRESSED AND GET BREAKFAST"
And with that i walk to breakfast

Maxs Pov
I woke up by davids scream
He so f***ing annoying
God Just one day i wish i wouldnt have to see him
"I refuse to believe that someone can be that happy" i say outloud to neil across the room who just groans and rolls over in bed in return

Davids pov

Before i walk away from the tents
I hear max say "I refuse to believe someone can be that happy"

Well hes right
I was happy once

When jasper was alive
And in one second he was gone forever

But i cant do anything about it now

All i do is put on a "happy"smile
And walk to breakfast

And on the way i force myself not to cry and i keep smiling

Because thats what i have to do
I just have to smile knowing ill never see him again
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A\N so im not very good at writing but this was okay idk tell me in the comments i just randomly came up with this so ya sorry if you cried I will take suggestions just no smut

Also i swear the second one after this will be happy maybe idk anyway

Bye

-Facktreader1

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