I wanna die
I wanna cry
I don't really know why
Anymore but I'm trying
I'm trying so damn hard to fight for what's right
But how do I even know if it's right
I put my blood sweat and tears into everything I've got
I try to damn hard sometimes but looking back
I wouldn't change that shit for nothing
Nothing at all
I'm looking back on the time when i was molested and thinking well shit why'd it have to happen I remember sitting there blaming god and asking him why
I remember sitting up at night crying
I remember not wanting to be touched cause I was so fucking scared it was going to happen again
And that shits pretty fucked up but thinking now I wouldn't change what happened to me
Because that's who made me me
That's what makes it a little easier to help someone when they are going through it
Looking back I do wish I told someone but i didn't
That's the biggest regret I have
I have people telling me it's never to late to tell someone but in reality yes it is yes it wasn't right but I'm still fighting day and night
That's something I don't have to fight all the time
So I'm gonna leave it that way cause I don't want to die trying but I'm sure as hell gonna
Keep my head held high and walk with some
Pride I've fought to damn long and to damn
Hard to just give up tonight
Tomorrow's another story but tonight I'm gonna keep trying
