Afraid of Roses

I should have held on

I miss you, I really do.

When we were together I always felt happy and filled with joy, you were my first real relationship.

A lot of people don't count it because we didn't do anything "physical", we never even kissed.

But I count it as my only real relationship so far because it was the only relationship that I was in where I actually felt something that I had never felt before.

I could have been having the worst day ever, and the minute I saw your face or as soon as you looked me in the eyes my whole day was fixed.

I wish I had realized how you made me feel sooner, because now I feel it's too late.

I was going through my own issues, and instead of clinging on to you and turning to you for help, I shut you out and didn't want to see you.

I wish I had held on for longer, instead of letting you go.

It breaks my heart every time I talk to you now because I know that I hurt you a lot, but you still talk to me and value me as a person and you still care about me when a lot of people don't.

Baby I never wanted to hurt you, and I never wanted to see you in pain or upset.

I'm sorry.

You don't know how badly I still want to run and jump into you're arms and tell you that "I love you"

But I can't, and I know that. I guess that certain things just weren't meant to work out.

I should have held on while I still had the chance.

I should have held on.