Afraid of Roses

Middle of the night~ poem

My eyes were getting heavy
As I laid there in my bed,
And I tried to fall asleep
But there were noises in my head.

There was memories from the past
And times I'll never forget,
But there are things I wish that never happened
Things that I regret.

Like when you used to hold me
And when we used to dream
Of having a future together
I guess that was just a scheme.

And I tried to just ignore it
I closes my eyes and counted sheep,
But the more I try to forget
The more I start to weep.

I miss when you were here
The time and joy we shared
But now I feel that all that's left
Was the love that was never spared.

I miss when we would talk
For hours and days on end,
I miss when we were oh so close
But now we're barely friends.

I try so hard to let you go
And I've tried to run away
But all the thoughts inside my head
Tell me I need to stay.

I've shut out so many people
The ones who say they cared
But they all seem to have vanished
Now that my real feelings are shared.

So now I shut out all the noise
I've Closed all the blinds
I lay myself down again
In hopes that I'll sleep fine.

So here I lay alone
In the middle of the night
I'm closing my eyes, taking deep breaths
And praying that I'll sleep tight.