Twilight | Renesmee And Jacob || Something Good

Chapter 21:

"It's not your fault." Jacob says to me, catching onto my wrist as I try to walk past him.

I try to shove him out of my way so I can walk up the steps but he steps infront of me again. Cautiously he lifts his hand up to gently stroke my cheek, I step back from him. He let's his hand drop to his side and sighs.

"Don't do this to me. Don't leave me alone."

I frown. I wasn't leaving him alone. I'd already been left on my own.

"I'm the one who's alone here. I've been alone from the start. No one else cared."

"I did."

"Of course you did." I say sarcastically. "That's why you wanted to take her from me!"

"I care about you."

"Don't give me that shit. I know you're selfish and jealous and all you could think of is 'It's Seth's'. So don't try to pretend you care."

"I do care. I love you Renesmee."

"Don't! Don't even bother! We're not meant to love each other Jacob! It's unnatural." I can't help but feel guilty when I see the look on his face.

"What's the supposed to mean? You're breaking up with me?" He says half mocking and let's out a small chuckle "I really don't think these are the circumstances for that."

"Don't tell me what to do! Don't even try to act better than me. Don't try to be more mature. You're not!"

He let's out a soft growl and I know I'm angering him when I shouldn't be. But I continue.

"Are you going to go all alpha on me? Try to make me do something, bow down to your orders?"

"You know I can't."

"No matter what you try to be Jacob Black you will always be a supernatural creature. No matter how human you act you'll never be normal. No matter how hard you try or what you do you can't change the fact that you're a monster. A creature of nightmares! And as much as you hate it, it will always be true."

I watch his body shake and I bring my hand up in time to block his punch, shoving his arm down.

"Don't even try." I snap and storm up the steps to my room, slamming the door.

Once I'm in my room I lie down on the bed, sobbing.

I just want her back.

Is that too much to ask?

And I want Jacob back. I wish I hadn't shouted at him, I didn't mean it... I was just angry, that's all.

There's a knock on the door and I shout.

"Come in."

Jake opens the door and I sit up, starting to apologise before he interrupts.

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have tried to hit you. And you were right. I can't even try to imagine what you're going through but I did love her, she made you so happy... I know, that this is hard for you Renesmee, but you're going to have to manage, because I need you. I'll always need you."

He steps forward and I stand up pulling him into a hug.

The tears that seem to constantly be in my eyes now pour down my cheeks again and he squeezes me tighter. We stand like that for a while before I whisper to him:

"I'm sorry."

He takes my hand and I wrap my fingers in the spaces between his and he steps back.

"You can't keep staying silent."

"I won't, I promise. I'll try."

Trying to be happy; now? That's the hardest promise I'll ever have to keep.