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Miraculously I fell asleep for two hours. And had a nightmare. I groaned, I couldn't fall asleep anymore. It was probably because I was ignoring him and I care too much or maybe it was just because I drank two cups of coffee. I chose to believe the latter.

Although exhausted, I push off my sheets letting the cold air hit my legs harshly. I walk into my living room, looking for my phone which isn't buzzing like it was before. I grab my purse, reaching in to get my phone.

The battery is low from the mass amounts of notifications, all from twitter. I ignore the notifications, unlocking my phone and opening it to twitter whilst walking back to my room to charge it.

Direct Messages > with Salonga, Unique T.

< Alam mo naman kung bakit hindi pwede..

< I'm sorry that probably is read worse than I mean

< Kung magiging honest ako, hindi ko nga alam kung bakit pa kita kinakausap

< Shit sorry I'm just typing all the wrong things

< Gusto kitang kinakausap ... You're different.

< Kahit na madalas wala namang kwenta ang mga pinagsasasabi ko . . .

< Nakikinig ka lang at iniintindi mo ako.

< Hello?

< Sorry kung na-offend kita. I didn't mean to.

< Uy ... magreply ka naman.

< Tama ka, hindi ako okay.

< Nakatulog ka na ba?

I re-read the messages a few times, not knowing how he's feeling completely. I've received several spams of huge typos and basic gibberish along with self hatred comments from him, and he's just felt better doing so. I still don't understand out of all his friends and family, he feels comfortable talking to a fan.

Gising ka pa? >

4 am na hoy! >

Don't worry, hindi naman ako na offend sa mga sinabi mo. I understand you. >

I click my phone off, throwing it on my bedside table, hoping for a response. I feel exhausted and drained, more than I did earlier, and I can't sleep. My phone buzzes just as I'm about to get up and go eat, so I grab my phone quickly unlocking it.

< Gising pa ako hahaha hinintay ko ang reply mo eh.

Hindi na ako masyadong active sa fandom like before, kaya hindi na ako masyadong updated sa mga kaganapan pero kung may interviews or gigs kayo, matulog ka na. >

< Ayoko pa.

At bakit boi? >

< ????

< Tinawag mo ba akong boi?

Duh! Hindi ka ba marunong
mag basa? >

< Marunong. Suntukin kita jan e.

Kaya mo? Kaya mo? >

< ... hindi.

Kaya ka niya iniwanan kasi hindi mo pinapanindigan mga sinasabi mo, char>

< Para sa isang fan, ang sama mo talaga sa idol mo. :(

USED TO BE a fan. Past tense. Unstanned ko na kayo. >
Joke lang. >
At sinong nagsabing ikaw ang idol ko?>
Si Zild ang pinaka gusto ko sainyong apat. >

< Ouch
< Pakiramdam ko rinereject mo na ako agad </3
< Bakit si Zild?

Bakit hindi? Ang cute niya uy >

< Mas cute ako dun psh
< Lamang lang yun saken ng sampung ligo
< Nacucutean ka dun kasi hindi mo pa yun nakitang kumakanta ng "super bass" habang naka superman na underwear

WHAT >
SERYOSO BA YAN >
HAHAHAHA I'M DYING >

< FANGIRL LANGUAGE! HINDI KA TALAGA NAGDDYING! HA!

Owshet, LODI!>
PINAGMAMALAKI TALAGA KITA >
SMART KID >

< Syempre, Valedictorian ata tong kausap mo.

... >
Really?? >

< Hindi. :)
< Drop out ako doi.

Gago ka. >

< HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Matokhang ka na sana >

< Mukha ba akong adik?

Ahmm, oo >
:) >

< Ano bang problema mo saken

Nagtanong ka eh >
Pinalaki ako ng mga magulang ko na maging honest >

< Edi wow.

Hala triggeredt na sya oh >
Pero paano kung namamatay na talaga ako >

< Bakit?

Naisip ko lang >

< I don't like to think about good people dying.

Mabait pala ako? Hahaha 3 weeks palang naman tayo magkakilala saka hindi naman ako importante lol >

< you are

and if you don't like to think about good people dying, include yourself on that list. >

because you're a good person okay? >

< Pakiramdam ko wala nang nakakakilala sakin. For who I am.
< Kahit mga bandmates ko . . . Hindi na kami kagaya ng dati.
< Hindi ko naman sila masisisi.
< Kasalanan ko din naman.

Importante ka at sana alam mo yun.

< Sana din alam mo na importante ka din.

kung mamatay ako, siguro iiyakan nila ako for a month and that's it.
pero kapag ikaw ang nawala, masasaktan ang mga fans ninyo >
Some would even be depressed>

< You are important okay?
< In the span of three weeks you've been so important.
< I've been isolated from the real world for years now, and i need a reality slap
< You're that reality slap

Compliment ba yan . . . >
Hehehe emeghed nose bleed >

< asdfgghjklqwertyuiop
< Panira ng moment

Isa yun sa mga talent ko >
PS. Importante ka bes >

< Ikaw din, amiga

Did you just call me "friend" in Spanish? >

< Yup.

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They're finally getting along, yey!