I Wont Lose My Fallen Angel ( BVB Fan Fic )

Chapter 11

HEATHER’S POV

            I rested my head oh Ashley’s chest and looked down at our hands. Our fingers were interlaced in a way that I thought would never happen again. I knew that I was being foolish, to forgive him so easily, but I don’t know… When it comes to Ashley, I just couldn’t help myself. When I looked into his eyes, all I could think of was the first time he looked at me. The first time that he walked into Andy’s house, stuck out his hand, and introduced himself. I knew from that moment that I’d fall for him some way or another. Throughout the years, despite the hurt in my heart and the constant reminding myself to hate him, the love remained. BVB was spot on when they said, “Love isn’t always fair”, but they were also right, when they said “Nothings gunna change my mind”.  Nothing has and nothing will. I’m in love with Ashley Purdy, and for the first time I was able to say that and know for certain that he felt the same way.

            I began to smile uncontrollably, so I buried my head deeper into his chest. “What are you so happy about?” he asked, with a smile forming on his own face.

            I signed and lifted my head. With a grin I shrugged my shoulders. Suddenly horror stuck me. I looked down at Ashley and found hair on his vest. Purple hair… MY hair. I stared at in terror and my face began to turn red out of embarrassment. “Oh my god… I… I…” I felt tears begin to form in my eyes, so I quickly covered them with my hands. As I did, my hand got caught in my hair and pulled out a clump of black hair. I turned my back to Ashley, too afraid of what he was thinking. I bet he doesn’t want to look at me. Why would he? I’m disgusting… It was getting harder to contain my tears, and I knew at any moment I would break, but I still tried my best. I felt a tear make its way out of my eye and down my face. I quickly whipped it away, but once one left my eye more were soon to follow. I began to shake uncontrollably and covered my face again, praying that Ashley couldn’t tell I was crying.

            “Heather it’s okay.” He soothed. He put his hand lightly on my back, but I moved away from him. “Please look at me.” He begged, but I wouldn’t… I couldn’t.

            “Stop it.” I whispered, not removing my hands from my face. I felt Ashley place his hand on my back again, and this time I shoved him away. “Stop! Don’t touch me!” I hated to act that way, to Ashley, but I couldn’t stand him looking at me. I was hideous and I knew it. How could he possibly love a girl who was losing her hair? I turned my back to him and pulled my knees to my chest. I wrapped myself into a protective ball and closed my eyes. “Don’t look at me…” I mumbled.

            I felt Ashley get up and walk in front of me. He knelt down so that he was at my level; despite my closed eyes, I knew he was looking at my hair. Who wouldn’t? He placed his hands on my face and whipped away my tears. I kept my eyes closed, but I didn’t push him away either. “Heather, please. Look at me.” He pled. I look a deep breath and opened my eyes. I looked into Ashley’s loving eyes, but quickly looked away in embarrassment. He cupped my face and forced me to look at him. He ran his hand through my hair and I nearly cried when a clump of purple ad black hair followed his fingers. I watched as he dropped the hair to the floor without even looking at it. His beautiful eyes were still fixed on me. “How can I not look at you? Someone as beautiful as you deserves to be seen by all.” I couldn’t help but smile at his kind words.

            “You’re just saying that…” I mumbled. “I’m not beautiful, I’m hideous… I don’t deserve your love.” I began to tear up, so I instinctively began to rub my eyes. I sniffled again and looked up at Ashley, with what I’m sure were red eyes.

            Ashley grabbed my hands and pulled me to my feet. He wrapped his strong arms protectively around me, and held me close. I buried my head into his chest and he rested his head on mine. “You’re beautiful Heather. Even without hair, you are still a knockout. And I’m not just saying that. How can you even say you don’t deserve my love? I’m the luckiest man in the world for having you. I just wish you could see that.” I couldn’t respond. I just stood in his arms, enjoying the sound of his heartbeat. I raised my arms shakily from my sides, and placed them around Ashley. I felt Ashley lightly kiss the top of my head and I began to blush. “ I love you. Don’t forget that.”

            I looked up and giggled at him, though my tears. “You shouldn’t.” I said, mimicking him.

            I felt him squeeze me tighter and laugh. He kissed me on the lips and as our lips parted, he looked into my eyes and smiled. “I think we both know that that’s not true.” I smiled and got on my tiptoes, so I could kiss him. He looked lovingly down at me and kissed my head again. “ You know,” he said with a smirk. “I don’t think the guys would mind if we started the movie without them. Which one did you pick?” Instantly in a great mood, I bounced over to the bed and grabbed Tropic Thunder. With a goofy smile on my face, I handed it to Ashley. “How did I know that you were going to pick this?” He laughed, and walked over to the DVD player.

            I sat down on my bed and got under the covers. He sat down next to me and wrapped his arm around me. As the movie started, I could have sworn I was in heaven. I was watching my favorite movie with my boyfriend from my favorite band, who didn’t care that I was losing my hair. “Ashley?” I asked. He looked down at me, with a sweet smile on his perfect face.

            “Yeah?”

            I didn’t really know what I was going to say. I’d thought of things to say, but none sounded right. Eventually I just leaned closed into him and let him hold me tighter. “Don’t leave me okay?” I leaned my head onto him and looked up at him.

            He kissed my head and squeezed me tight. “Never.” He promised. After that we didn’t really talk. We just watched the movie, and other than me laughing my weird laugh every two minutes, we remained silent. Yep. This is definitely heaven.