fix me (Demi Lovato Fanfic)

chapter 9

Leah's pov

I smile as I hear a soft knock on my door. That is Demi again, I guess. She is the only who visits me although she is my therapist which makes it kinda weird but she is the only one who is still there for me. I laugh sarcastically. The only one who's still there for me is my therapist. Maybe that's just what I deserve.

As the door opens I see it's Demi, just as I expected but she's not alone. There's a girl, a women actually who's walking behind her. Something about that women makes me smile. Her face, it's like I've seen her before. That's when I realize that I do have seen her before. I shake my head in unbelief.

"M-mom?"

"Leah! babygirl." She walks towards me and wants to hug me but I don't let her. "Don't you dare to say babygirl and don't you dare to hug me."

"But Leah, I'm your mother."

I shake my head "I mom won't walk away when her kid is only two years old and let nothing hear from her anymore so no you're not my mom, you're not a mom at all. Everything is your fucking fault."

"You're right" she says with tears in her eyes "Where is Lisa? It's time to tell you both my side of the story."

Tears are welling up in my eyes as she mentions Lisa's name, my twin. I haven't heard her name since she died.

"Well it's impossible to talk to Lisa because you have to go to heaven and heaven is some place you will never go to" I answer with a cold tone.

She shakes her head "no, no, no not my babygirl." 

"Well it's your own fault, she killed herself because you left us alone with an abusive, alcoholic father." 

"Leah!" Demi sends me a glare. "Maybe your mom should tell her story"

I nod "go ahead" 

Amber pov

I nod and start telling my story while I look right into Leah's eyes.

the story started 17 years ago. It's when I met Eric, your dad. He was so handsome, with those beautiful blue eyes just like yours. He was the kind of man that every women wanted but he, he choose me. I was happy and nothing could break that happiness.Of course I noticed that he was drinking alcohol, a lot. But I was so in love that I didn't care. He hit me a few times but I was to blind from love that I always forgave him. I shouldn't have done that. After a year we married. In our marriage he start drinking more and more and more. One time I told he should go to rehab and the next I remember after that I is that I woke up in rehab. 2 years late you and Lisa were born. I was so happy, finally a little sunlight in my life. You two were my sunshines. Eric was so happy that he even stopped drinking. He stopped drinking for you two. That made me even more happy but after five months it went wrong. I don't know what happened but he one night he came home drunk and rapped me. I stayed with him for another 1,5 year but after that I was done. I was tired from living with him. I walked away, I could have take you two with me but I couldn't do that to Eric. he loved you two to much and you two loved him back. He'd never hit you. You girls loved him more than you loved me so I thought you wouldn't miss me anyways. After I walked away I came in a house for women who were victims of domestic violence, just like me. I got therapy. After a year I was allowed to leave the house. I was planning to get some contact with you two again but it was too dangerous.

"I'm so sorry." I say as I finished the story. I feel tears rolling down my cheeks and as I look up I see Demi and Leah having tears as well.

"It's okay ,mommy, now I understand. It wasn't your fault. It's okay." Leah soft voice is the last thing I hear before running away from the hospital.

This was it. I was able to tell my story and Leah forgave me. All I needed in life but still... My mind is to fucked up because of everything that happened in my life. First my dad and then Eric. Both alcoholic and abusive. I let my children alone with a father who was alcoholic and who abused them. Leah might have forgive me but I will never forgive myself.

Demi's pov

I feel tears rolling down my cheeks after Ambers story and I see Leah have tears as well. Poor Amber. I knew her life was hard but this hard? 

I walk towards Leah. Poor Leah. She never had any love in her life. She never don't even know how worth she is living but I will show her. 

I hope Amber will show it to her too. I hope Amber will take her as her daughter again and show her some love but a phone call later this day tell me that it won't.

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what do you think what the phone call is about?

guys sorry for this chapter. I hated it but I couldn't think of anything better but suggestions are always welcome :)

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