fix me (Demi Lovato Fanfic)

chapter 10

Leah's pov

I'm looking at the suitcase, which is standing right in front of me. Just as I thought my life couldn't get any worse this happened. I'm orphan from now. You thought that it was maybe possible to live with my mom, Amber, again? Yeah actually I thought the same but after she left the hospital yesterday she just killed herself. She just jumped from some bridge. And it's all my fault. After twelve years she saw me again and then she just killed herself. Even Demi blames me. She walked away ever since we heard the news, so yes it's my fault and don't you dare to contradict with that because it's just true. 

And this day, from this day I'm forced to live in an orphan house because I need to leave the hospital right now. I'd rather stay with my father than living in an orphan house. But since he's in jail and won't come out for another 5 months, I just have to survive. And I'm a survivor. I do not life but I just survive. But it's time to give up, don't you think so?

 'Leah, girl, are you ready to come with me?" 

I nod and walk with the socail worker ,who's gonna bring me to the orphange, to the car.

"So Leah, how are you doing?" she says as we're driving.

"Oh my mom ,who I didn't see for twelve years, told me her fucked up life story and after that she killed herself. I'm an orphan now but thanks for aking if I'm okay."

She sigh not knowing what to answer. "Demi called me and ask me if I could tell you that you have to be at the therapy centre tomorrow morning at 10.30"

I smirk and look out of the window with tears welling up in my eyes. Demi called the social worker to tell me that. Does she blame me so much that she won't even talk to me anymore?

Demi's pov

to my dear little sister Demi,

If you read this I'm gone. I'm not here anymore. I'm in heaven or probably in hell. Or maybe just nowhere. I'm not the one who has to judge about that. God decides. He's the only one who may judge me, but in my life there were to many people who were judging me. I was always 'the women who left her husband' I didn't want to make it worse then it already was. That's why I didn't tell you about Leah (& Lisa, may she rest in peace just like me). 

Demi you didn't know me all your life. I didn't want to be a burden on you first but now I know that i am not at all. Thank you for being my little sister. Never forget how much I love. Please stay an inspiration to the millions of teenage girls/boys. I'm so proud of you. You have over come so much and I love you for telling the world what you stand for. You make a lot of people feel beautiful and worthy of life. You made me feel like that too. 

I want to ask you if you want to be that for Leah too. Please be there for her, make her feel worthy of life. I have another letter for her will you give it to her?

Stay who you are.

I'm sorry for giving up.

Amber

It's like the fifth I read this letter and can't stop crying. I sob and snuggle into Wilmers chest.

"shh calm down a little hermosa."

"I can't Wilmer, I just can't it's all my fault. If haven't take a year off, I would have never met Leah. I would never know that Amber was Leah's mom. I would have never bring them back together. If all of this didn't happened than Amber would still be here."

"Demetria, it's not your fault. It was God's plan to bring them back together. He just needed you to help a bit. Amber wanted to leave this planet a long time ago. She just had to go in peace, knowing that her daughter will be okay. And please don't blame yoursef for taking a year off. I know you needed it, You know it too. And your still not over it so please get some rest." Wilmer says while stroking through my hair.

He always knows how to make me feel better. I slowly calm down.

"Are you going to see Leah before the funeral?"

"We have a therapy session tomorrow morning."

Wilmer nods and place a kiss on my fore head.

"I love you Demi, my sunshine."

"I love you too."

"Please stay strong. Stay strong for yourself, for your lovatics, for me, for Amber, stay strong for Leah."

I nod and let out a sigh while drying my tears. He's right I have to stay strong.

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heaaa,

so this happened to Amber... but we still don't know Demi's secret. Anyways from now I have no idea were to go to with this story so your idea's are so welcome.

Thankyou for all the reads/votes/comments, they mean a lot to me :)