faith H.S

jealousy

i've never been the kind of girls easygoing having so much friends  and popularity.No im more of that kind that sits back and just watch everything closely so they don't get bored to death. I am that kind of person who tries to be nice with everybody so i get unoticed just to be safe from bullying. Im that girl who has a crush on that famous, beautiful and popular boy. and in my case that guy happened to be named zayn. I spend my days thinking about him hoping that someday he will notice me but that's jsut impossible cause i am who i am and im never gonna change I am that girl that nobody cares about.

But now all Ihave to think about is that i have an empty house waiting for some activities.Indeed i dit get up and put the music on it highest volume.Singing and dancing to songs relaxed me.I danced for few hours non-stop fogetting my life ,my mind, my heart and my thoughts of him. then i suddenly realised that the lights are on , the windows are open  so I rushed to close them. And just then i saw a peson  with a tall frame and a mop of curls on his  head when he saw me he just ran away. My mind darted to harry the new boy but i just shook that idea off my mind it couldn't be him it's impossible. But in the bottom of my heart i wished it was him so that finally someone could see me in a different way and  for another reason that i just  couldn't bring myself to form.After this quick incident i stoped dancing and turned the tv on.

I opend my eyes and turned off my daily alarm. I don't remember how i fell asleep in the couch normally i can't sleep in  any other place but me bed. I guess i was just tired . I got up to wear  my usual school uniform, ate what i found and went out headding to my school. Then i saw that new guy Harrry getting out from a house in front of ours so maybe harry was  the one staring at me yesterday . he caught me loocking at me but I turned my eyes away. Then i went all by my own to school.

The first  few class past normal with nothing intersting , but then  i saw Zayn with another girl making out in the hallway. My eyes were stuck looking at them eating each other and nothind could hurt like it did .I tried to move but my feet wouldn't budge they were stuck and I was stuck in this fire slowly burning every feeling i had for him with  the jealousy killing me. Suddenly the tears started to burn my eyes then a boy pushed me ,when he passed i saw those mesmerizing green eyes.They are  really breathtaking and that couldn't describe them  well enough. And those full pink lips i wonder how they're gonna feel against mine.  I just can't understand myself, am i going crazy??  I just  was going to cry over zayn and right now im staring at this guy thinking about his lips against mine but   what really  intrigued me is he looked back at me. And that enough to warm my heart.        

After a few other class i just went back home, in my way back i saw a cactus and a plant next to it i tried to help the plant away frol the thorn but it just turn back to its place and that's when it hits me my love with zayn is the same.iam the torn plant that just can get away from the cactus' thorn no matter how hard i try i come back to loving him i suffer but he lives his life not giving a damn about me. I have to forget him he will never ever think about me the way i do and that hurts.

I went home and started to feel excited cause tomorow louis is coming