faith H.S

my life screwed

I'am honestly confused, saying sorry doesn't mean that I have to forgive him.When I refused going out with him he just gaveuo on me from the first chance he got ,I think f he just faught a little bit harder I would've accepted.cause anyways I just can't refuse zayn malik .

*okey just don't do it again*I sent the message waiting for his answer.

*great cuz I really miss you.what about you sneak out right now I'm under your window XX*

I nearly fell form my bed when I read that he was here.I quickly ran to window only to discover his car on the side of the street .I can't believe it,this is really what the 80's movies show us.I hope he doesn't think that I'm gonna sneak out of the window cuz i'm not.Unfortunatly I don't have a tree next to my window.

*I don't how to get out.I'm really scared.*

*C'mon live your life im sure your parents are sleeping just get out from the door.*

I did as I was told and got out from the door and thank god I haven't met anyone.

I found him waiting for me looking as good as ever.He got a haircut and he looks smoking hot that I almost shocked on my own breath.he was breathtaking.

"hello beautiful I missed you ."And he pulled me on a hug that got me weak on the knees.

"okey now we have to go."

I got in the car and waited silently next to him.

"Where are we going at this time of night?*I asked confused.

"My house."he said it like it was the most  obvious thing to know.I suddenly don't feel that easy about it.

I waited a little bit worried.

"What's that frown for? don't worry they will be some friends waiting for us."

"ooh so liam will be there?"I asked for liam cause he's the only guy from school apart zayn who's nice to me.And I really trust him.

"No he's not there besides who needs him when you have me."I couldn't help  the butterflies in my stomach when he said  i have him that means zayn is mine.Zayn  freaking malik is mine.

We stopped the car in front a big house with lights on.when we entered i was suprised to see some guys and girls all of them looking like they're drunk and I couldn't tolerate it.I saw niall making out with another blondie wearing a very short dress that barelly coverd the goodies.I look down at my outfit and I couldn't regret it more.I'am wearing my pajama's short ad a shirt with no bra.I look like an idiot i'm sure.

"Come here sit with us."

I sat next to him feeling uncomfortable.

"do you wanna a drink?"

"no than I don't drink" and all of them looked at me like i took off my clothes or should I say murdered someone because the first one is normal in this environment.

"really are you sure nothing at all not even watter?"

"actually watter will be fine."he smiled than got up and left me alone.As always they're taking like i don't exist .I'm actually used to that,that's what I always sit in a corner and just watch everybody.

"here drink it."I thanked as he passed me the cup of water.I took a sip from it and it tasted good . realyy really good.

"what is this? it doesn't taste like watter."

"yea it's with fruit flavor and I thought you'de enjoy it."he said with a reassuring smile.

"euhm  thanks anyways."he gave me a nod and then passed his arm around my shoulders and I couldn't help the grin on my face, public affection always get me.

I drank the whole cup and suddenly felt quite dizzy.My head started to burn and I felt a huge argue to sleep.

"what's goimg one?"he said with a worried tone.

"I think i need to sleep can we go home."

"or you just can go upstairs so you can sleep."

I nodded and let him carry me to wherever he wants I barelly could move my arms and I definetly can't carry myself alone.

I woke up to a very white room,I looked around to discover a room with everything so tidy.When i tried to get up I felt a terrible headache. Why am I feeling this way? I laid back and waited for another few minutes to get up.I can't remember how I ended up in this room the last thing I remember is zayn carrying me tht's it.Then I realised that I'am from head to toe naked.I tried to remember taking off my clothes but I couldn't.I really don't know what happened to me,what am I doing in zayn's house and why I can't remember anything from yesterday.Suddenly the door opened rather violently and zayn appeared  behind it.And  amost instatntly I grabbed the sheets to cover my naked body.

"You need to get up my parents are coming."and he closed the door behind him.

Did I slept with zayn? was I naked with him?and why is he so rude to me right now?I tried to forget these questions and got up to search for my clothes, I finally found them in the bathroom.I wore them and headed outside.I followed the voice of someone talking until i found myself in the kitchen.

"good morning"

"morning"he said with a bored tone.

"so what happened yesterday?I can't remember anything."

"nothing I just got you to that room to sleep that's it."he said without looking at me.

"we didn't sleep together?"I asked with a low voice afraid of the answer.

"don't flatter yourself sara you're not the type."he said with a sarcastic laugh.

I couldn't believe my ears I'm not the type not his type.and me who thought I'm his girlfriend but I was wrong.I don't know what happened to him he was so nice with me and now he's ....he's like every guy I've met.Now I do  believe what I said before.I'm not the kind of girls who're gonna fall in love and be loved.

"sara you have to go now."

"ok will you please take me to my house."

"yea about that I think you have to go by yourself I have a lot of things to do."

And just like that I got out of the house and started to run toward my house thanke god it's not a very long distance.I don't know what happeed to zayn yesterday he was sweet and carring and this morning he changed completly.

When I opened the house's door I found my mother next to the kitchen.oooh this is gonna be painful.

"Where were you young lady?"

"good moring mom"I don't what to say to."just relax mom I just woke up really early and went outside to run a bit."It's was the first idea that crossed my mind.I didn't lie when I said I was runing and I'm sweating like an olympic player.

"really running today is a school day and you came this late you don't have anough time for shower or to eat.how could you this? you should be responsible by now.You should concerate on your studies and not runiing is this early morning.Now enough talking and go to your room."This is how my mom always talk to me she always says everything and never ever let me say my opinion.

"okay mom"

I took a shower and got dressed in my normal clothes not feeling good to even dress up.I got out without taking breakfast.I went to the school and got ignored by everybody.the week passed with zayn ignoring me pretending he deosn't even know me.How could he forget all the laughs we had? all the moments we shared? and all the kisses we enjoyed?Did he ever felt anything about me?or was it just me imagining thigns.These questions are killing me and I need answers.

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sorry for the mistakes.