suicide storys

ALEX JULIA

Alex Julia

There was a school play I accidentally auditioned for at the beginning of the year. It was Les Miserables. I sang and made the director cry because she thought my voice was really nice. So I got the part as a character named Cosette. On the first rehearsal, I walked in and said hi to everyone. Then, I saw something sparkle from the corner of my eye. I looked to my side and found the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my life. My heart hurt. I just stood there looking at her. Then, I snapped out of it and asked her who she was playing. Her answer was "Marius". The character Cosette gets married to at the end. I clenched my heart because it felt like it was being stabbed. I smiled and said I was playing Cosette. She smiled back and we became friends. When it was time for me to sing, I got onstage and started singing. I looked at the girl and her expression was amazed. When I was finished, I got offstage and she told me my voice was beautiful and she never heard one more beautiful. I didn't believe her but I just said thanks.

Then the next day, we walked to the metro and when we said bye, she hugged me. My heart stopped. I tensed up but then relaxed. She was so soft to hug. I almost fell asleep.

We were friends for months and months and during the play, I got to be kissed on the cheek by her which made me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Then the play ended. The cast drifted apart. The relationship between me and that girl got bitter and I could tell our friendship wasn't healthy. But I would to anything for her. To be with her. So I invested all my time into her.

A few months later, she got mad at me for something. I can't say what it was but it made me really sad. I attempted suicide but it didn't work. The fight was on text. I cried and cried until I was just lying there on the floor not even knowing what to do. Or how to move. Or how to be happy. From then up until now I have never been happy.

And if she just knew how I felt and how much I wanted her to forgive me, It would make me just a little happy. But she hates me now and I can't do anything but walk, talk, breathe, eat. I can't feel positive emotions. She stole them