Thinking of You (JOSHLIA)

Part 7 - Julia

The one thing I don't quite grasp the concept of is that there are more girls who are meaner than the guys in our class. I'm not sure when this all started but I could see the looks that they give me. And when I try to make conversation with them, they would only give me a one word answer. Though I'm only talking about Cynthia and her group of friends that's already like half of the girls in our room.

I don't remember ever doing something that would make her mad at me. And she's getting insulting lately with her snide remarks. What totally makes me sad is that I'm starting to question myself if there's really something wrong about me that I should change and kept thinking of what I should do about it.

I always thought that Cynthia is really pretty. With her long hair that curls at the ends, her dark eyes that turns brown when the room seemed to be much brighter. Cute nose and perfectly lined teeth. It's just a shame that her attitude ruins it all. She would probably have a nice smile but all I've been seeing from her are sneers and condescending laughters. 

"She's just envious because she has a crush on Carlos," Anne would say to me, annoyed. "Don't let her get to you, Ok? I would gladly pull out her hair for you if you want me to."

***

"I was just talking to the phone." Said the same girl we saw with Joshua the other day. She has this piercing dark eyes and full lips, it's hard not to recognise her. She smirked at Cynthia and then walked out from them, her dark shoes with high heels click-clacking on the floor. She looked like she came straight out of a teenage magazine, it's amazing.

It's the first time I saw Cynthia that angry. She looked like she was about to blow up at any moment, her cheeks red from anger, eyes in slits.

"Hey, can we go and talk to her?" I immediately asked Anne with pleading eyes. I think it was really nice of her to defend me like that. And she didn't even know me!

"I really want to thank her for that. But I'm too scared if I'm alone."

"Definitely!" Anne nodded. "That girl was freakin' awesome!"

***

I couldn't help but watch Mia and Joshua from their table after meeting her. When I saw Joshua gave her his barbeque, it seemed pretty obvious that Joshua likes her. And I could see why. I let out a sigh.

"You've been staring at them for a while now," Anne butted in, stopping me from my reverie. "Thoughts?"

I felt my cheeks turn red. "Nothing."

"Ayiiii," Anne wiggled her eyebrows at me teasingly. "Do I detect some jealousy?"

"My God, Anne," I slapped her shoulders and drank my soda to avoid her gaze. "That's absurd."

I heard her giggle but I'm glad she didn't continue to tease me with that idea. Or else I would've relented.

I'm still not sure of what I really feel actually. It's very confusing these days...

What with all that's been happening. Totally a whirlwind of emotions.