Rejected and Beaten but never once Broken.

Chapter Ten- Recovery

Trini's POV...

I woke up to someone's blood all over me, I had no idea what happened or whose it was, all I know is that it's someone familiar, I race back to the Packhouse to it being guarded I was very confused, I walked up to one of the guards to have them growl at me and speak very calmly "you cannot be here Trini" I was stunned, I pushed passed them and followed the smell of the blood, I came to Courtney's room and immediately thought the worst, I burst in to see Courtney, bloodshot eyes, tear stains on her face and looking at her mate, Sarah lying in the bed unconscious, it was my fault, Courtney growled lowly at me "stay away from her Trinity" she hadn't called me that in years. I broke down crying, I can't believe I did that, they had no clue if she would ever wake up...

3 MONTHS LATER...

It had been three months since I attacked Sarah, three months since she had said a word or opened her eyes, that was the wake up call I needed I've been seeing a werewolf Psychologist, the first month I barely spoke to her until one day it all came flowing out...

FLASHBACK...

I was in a session with Doctor Blake, she was a nice lady, quite short for a werewolf, she had been mainly asking me questions the first month until she asked me one that made it all change... "So Trini, tell me about Ryder?" I inhaled deeply, I was not ready for this, was I? I sighed finally giving in.. "When I first met him, I had been rejected, I was protecting my girls, I had no idea I would feel about someone this way, I didn't know I could love, I didn't know he would have this much of an effect on me, I craved being around him, I craved his kisses and cuddles and seeing him smile, that damn smile it made me beam with happiness, he wasn't just my mate, he was my best friend, and I miss him so much" I sigh touching my stomach, "these babies would have been lucky to have a father like him" I whispered, starting to tear up, Doctor Blake spoke softly "how did his death affect you?" now I'm balling "losing him felt like I lost a part of myself, knowing that I'll never be able to hug him, or kiss him again or even hold his hand and let the world know he was mine, I can never make him smile again or laugh!!!! This hurts more then you could ever know!!!" by the end of that I was yelling and sobbing at the same time, how could she ask that?? Doctor Blake replied saddened "I lost my mate too, that's why I became a psychologist because I figured out how to deal with it and now you will to, you need to try and fix things with your friends, focus on your babies, they are lucky to have a mum like you" I managed to get ahold of myself and stop crying "I am so sorry I didn't know I wouldn't have yelled if I knew" I softly spoke, she shook her head and waved her hand "to fix things with your friends I'll see you tomorrow" I rushed out of there knowing what I had to do, I went up to Sarah's room no one was there awesome this should work, I used my healing powers to try and heal her, it started to burn the pain OH MY GOSH THE PAIN!! It was excruciating I'm about to give up when I hear a little girls voice "keep pushing, I'm giving you strength" I did as this weird little voice told and pushed, I then passed out. Waking up to Courtney shaking me, I couldn't hear what she was saying, I couldn't move, only blink, what have I done.. I'm Catatonic...

FLASHBACK OVER...

I have been laying here since that day, I can hear and move my mouth, but I can't speak or move my body I don't know what happened, the voice told me to push and that's what I did and I ended up like this, the voices have spoken to me since there was three, two girls and a boy. It was really odd, I'm constantly alone with my thoughts, the thoughts of what I did to Sarah, the thoughts of Ryder and that beautiful time we spent together, thinking about how much our friends loved us together, thinking about how much I loved him. as I lay here I replay every special moment we had together I would give anything to have him back... I'm broken from my thoughts when Courtney comes in so happy, "Sarah's awake, thanks to you!!" I weakly smile, so glad that she's okay, I am still stuck here, then something happens. Sarah walks in, I go to say I'm sorry when she speaks "Trini, I know you didn't mean it, you gave up your body to save me, I'm beyond grateful" I just smile and nod slightly, then the weirdest thing happens my finger moves, then my toes, then my arms are able and eventually I'm standing upright and walking this is crazy! An hour ago I was crippled then I hear that voice again "We stopped you moving, to help you recover" that was it nothing more, nothing less, I look at Courtney and she runs up and hugs me crying and saying thank you multiple times, I'm so glad she still has her mate, I miss mine but I'm okay. Just then I feel this excruciating pain in my stomach and some sore of liquid starts to run down my legs OH MY GOD IM GOING INTO LABOUR IM FREAKING OUT I CAN'T BREATHE. Courtney notices my panic and rushes around to get everything ready thank god for werewolf speed and a doctor in the pack house. I'm not going to go into graphic detail about what happened but 4 hours later I had three beautiful babies, two girls, one boy. We have Leilani, the oldest, Ryker, my baby boy named after his dad's wolf and Violet, the youngest, they are so beautiful I can't even describe it, Ryker already looks like his dad the little handsome devil. I'm feeling whole again.

A FEW DAYS LATER...

We were all just sitting around, Turns out Bree found her mate during the war, she just didn't tell any of us, his name is Zac, he's a little nerdy looking for a werewolf but he's super funny, I feel so left out honestly I missed him so much, that's when I saw this person, and it was like fate that I was here at the time he was, because it felt like it all slowed down.. it wasn't mate bond strong but there was something there, he's 6ft4 dark hair, golden eyes, tanned skin. He was gorgeous, I was so distracted that I didn't even know he had come over to me, I jumped a little, he chuckled Oh wow that chuckle.

My wolf stirred for the first time in two months, I knew she would be back, "What's your name Beautiful?" I barely managed to get my response out when I realize...

He's Human...