Rejected and Beaten but never once Broken.

Chapter Thirteen- A Beautiful Drug

I had been searching for days, looking for him with no luck,  I can't get his eyes out of my head, they are like a drug, anytime I think about his eyes, nothing else matters, I'm floating on cloud nine, I am out looking for him again, wondering where he could be, I start looking at my map realising he was under my nose the whole damn time, he was living in the tunnels under my house, it makes perfect sense, I race back to the house and take a trip through the tunnels when I feel someone following me I turn around to see those eyes again, this time he was human, he was beautiful, he had dark black hair, and those emerald eyes, he was 6ft5 and I was lost for words, I couldn't speak, he looked me up and down and said "you're so beautiful, I have missed you so much" I looked at him lost and confused "what do you mean?? I have never met you before" I replied backing away. "You really don't remember me?? I thought my eyes would trigger it but this time I guess not, I am your mate, your true mate, from the last 15 lives, I have been searching for years and when I heard about the black she-wolf who killed her father, I knew it was you" as he said that I clutched my head in agony as I remembered every life I've had with him, I remembered everything and at that moment, nothing else mattered. He was everything that I wanted and needed, remembering my past lives was like a trance I couldn't get out of it was hypnotic and scary all at once.

1970's
It was 1972, I had just turned 26, I was engaged to Lucian, who I had know for many years, we were happy and trying for our first child we were living in our cute little two-bedroom apartment when I got the call, the one that had made my heart drop, I was going to war, i dreaded this call, i signed on to the Australian military as a trained nurse at 20, then I met Lucian, he had shown me all the love I had never had and i fell hard for him, it was the middle of winter, i had to pack light, but warm, I was shaking so much that I could barely pack my bag. Lucian came in and saw me, the look in his eyes was the worst of it all, he held up a letter, I wandered over to him confused then I saw the name "Beacon Hills Pregnancy Centre", it was already opened, when he softly spoke "when were you going to tell me that you were pregnant" he was about to cry, "when I knew for sure" I whispered, I thought he was going to yell, instead he grabbed me and pulled me into a hug, I was pregnant and going to war, there's no way around this, I leave in the morning "please don't go Kailee" (my name in this life) I was so upset but I had no choice, I let go of him, finished packing my bags and decided to go stay on the base here, it would be easier for me to leave if I didn't see the pain in his eyes. I got there and instantly fell asleep as soon as I laid down, i woke up at 0600 hours (6am) got dressed in my uniform and got on the plane, little did I know that as soon as we were about to land in Vietnam, the plane was going to get hit by a fighter jet that managed to go undetected, the plane got spilt in two leaving myself and the others to fall to our deaths still strapped into the seats, the plane hits the water with a thud causing us to jerk one way. We had to get out before we drowned, everyone else managed to get theirs undone, but mine wouldn't budge, the water was filling up quickly. If I didn't get out now. I would die. I managed to extend my claws out enough to slice the restraints, I managed to get near the surface when the world went black and I was dead.

Present
I woke up screaming as if I had just died again, he was still there by my side, "what in the hell was that?" I yelled, panting still. "That, my dear was one of your lives" he smirked "if that's how they all feel I don't want to relive another" I groaned rubbing my head, he just chuckled "you don't have to relive anymore, but now do you see why I had to find you??" I looked at his beautiful eyes and knew he wasn't lying I ran up and jumped into his arms, his arms wrapped around my hips like he had done it a million times (well he has lol), we were so close he leaned in and kissed me, it was the most intense fireworks I've ever experienced in my life, I don't know how long we were like that for until I pulled away, and dropped down "I have to go tell Tom" he growled, oh shit that was hot "he's a human. We had a semi-bond" I wet to run when I saw him behind me, I went to speak when he spoke "I already knew about this, I was to help you get over your grief" he said as he walked away, it hurt a lot but never as much as Ryder, I turned to Lucian and he just hugged me knowing exactly what I needed then and there, I had to go tell the girls. I walked up to the house with Lucian by my side, I walked through the door to see the girls looking at me as if they had seen a bloody ghost I took a deep breath in and went "okaysoyouknowthatroaryouheardlastightwellthatwasLucianandididn'tknowwhohewasuntilheshowedmethatihaveliterallybeenreincarnatedmultipletimesandthathe'smyonetruemate" I panted at the end of that (the irony) everyone but Courtney looked so damn confused. She repeated it to them slowly and the more she explained the more they understood, wait. She remembers the past lives I looked at her with pure shock she just shrugs it off saying "you think Lucian is the only immortal werewolf? While all you girls have died multiple times. I managed to stay alive. That's why the elemental has stayed alive and never gone extinct, gooses" she finishes and sips her drink. I am not surprised honestly.