♦Drama Llama News♦

♦I'M NOT DEAD♦

Made: 7/8/18
Published: 7/8/18

Hello everyone! I hope you are having a wonderful and majestic day! If not, I hope you are now! :3

Before you continue, I want to say I'm going to talk about a dark topic during this chapter. Well, I'm not sure if you'll consider it dark or not, but I'm going to warn you about it anyways. If you don't want to read about it, you can skip that part. I'll put a maker there so you know where it is. I hope you enjoy this anyways! :3

It's been a while since I've published anything. You guys probably thought I was dead, but unfortunately for you guys, I'm still here. Your expressions must look like the gif right now. XD

You guys are probably curious as to what I've been up to. Well, worry no more! I'm going to tell chu! :3

So lately I haven't been on here for quite awhile as many of you could tell. There's a couple of reasons why.

Reason #1 is that I was busy practicing a dance for my friend who was celebrating her quince. Yesh. Chu guys heard right. The Majestic Drama Llama, who basically fails at everything in life, got chosen to dance in a surprise dance. It was sort of hard but very fun. Except when we kept getting yelled at by my friend's uncle, who was helping us with our dance. Let me just say, I felt so upset with some of the things he said. But since I didn't want to offend him or my friend, who by the way was also getting really annoyed with him too, I didn't say anything and just followed with what he said. =3=

Reason #2 on why I haven't been on as often is because I was in summer school. Once again, chu guys heard right. The once A and B only student got put into summer school. The reason I got put into it, however, was because Health, the class I took during summer school, didn't fit in my schedule. Since it was a required class, I had to take a class in the morning to finish it. I would have finished it while school was still running, but I fell into depression. =3=

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Reason #3 is really sad to talk about.  So recently, one of my upper classmate passed away. The cause of his death was that he got hit by a semi truck on the way to work. From what I got from my parents and a couple of people was that his car was so terribly destroyed and crushed, that they had to cut it apart in order to get to him. I'm not sure if he died on impact or not, but all I'm hoping is that he didn't feel any of the pain.

When we went to his wake (Sorry if it's the wrong term), we saw that it was an open casket one. I didn't want to go up and see him, since this was the first mournful event I've been to and I was terrified to see him, but my parents made me go up with them to go pay our respect. Never had I felt so scared and heart broken before that as soon as I saw him, I instantly started to cry. The person I saw in the coffin looked nothing like he did before. He looked completely different. I instantly knew that he must have suffered a bunch of injuries to not look anything like he did before. My mom even said when she touched his face and hands, they felt fake and wax like. Even though I didn't know him very well, I couldn't help but cry. It made me realize how fragile a human life is and how quickly it can end.

The next day we went to his funeral. Like I said before, this was my first time going to a funeral. I was really sad, but I didn't cry in the beginning. However, when I heard his 4 year old sister start crying when they started lowering him down, I began to cry. I don't know why, but just hearing how broken she sounded made my heart break.

It took me a couple of days to recover from it because like I said before, it made me realize a bunch of things. And you know when you can't stop thinking about something, it makes you lose focus on what you're working on. Right now I'm feeling better but I'm still recovering from what happened.

Now to reason #4. This is actually the main reason why I've been gone. As you heard, I fell into depression. I don't know how it happened but I'm guessing it was all the pressure and stress in school and a bit of family problems. This school year hasn't been the best let me just say. This had to be the worst time of my life so far. My grades started to drop, my eating habit began to change, I started to break down a lot more often, I became very dismotivated to do anything, and I began to consider even ending my life just so I could be free again.

However, I didn't do that because of my biggest fear. That fear being that I'm terrified of being forgotten. I didn't want to be forgotten like a toy you once loved with all your heart when you were a child only to forget about it completely as time goes by. So I kept pushing forward, stumbling and lost as I went.

As time passed, I began to feel even more tired and depressed. I even began to contemplate whether I should end it all again. This time, however, I didn't care of being forgotten. Just as I was close to letting it all go, I came across a band. Not a rock band, but a K-Pop boy band. I'm pretty sure a lot of you guys *Cough* *Cough* ARMY where you at?*Cough* *Cough* are familiar with the boy band, BTS. This group of wonderful and inspiring young individuals saved me. The way they made their music and how hard they worked for the things they loved, gave me hope that maybe not everything is lost. When I started to listen to more of their music and what they've been though, I could see how they expressed themselves through their music. It made me see that despite everything they've been through, they kept on bringing joy to us and kept on fighting forward. This gave me the power to keep fighting and move forward.

Right now, I'm still stressed about some stuff. Especially with my very religious family and their expectations from me, but I know I'll make it through and that's all thanks to BTS. I really hope that one day I can meet them and tell them how grateful I am to them and how they helped me through the most difficult time of my life. Until that day comes, I'll keep cheering them on and keep moving forward. :3

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Right now I'm really motivated to try to continue my goal on being an actress. I want to be able to help people and hopefully inspire them to keep going. Who knows, I might even try becoming a singer in a group. I have to practice my singing though if I don't want to break everyone's ears. Plus, find group mates who actually want to be around me. So, who wants to join me? XD

Anyways, I know that a couple of you are probably thinking that I wrote this to get attention or something. I respect your opinion and won't fight you. However, the reason I wrote this is to inform you guys why I've been gone and to show you that no matter what happens, never give up. Hopefully I'll be more active now. But don't trust meh. You know I'm a very lazy person. XD

Another thing too. I'm close to finishing my new Wizardess Heart roleplay book. As a bunch of you are aware, Wattpad has removed my Shall We Date roleplay books for mature content (The lemons XD). I'll be remaking all three of them and hopefully they'll be better than my original ones. Let's be honest, they sucked and needed a lot of improvement. XD

Before I end the chapter, I want to thank you all for being by my side through out these years despite me being a lazy good for nothing and not publishing things that often. I can't believe it's been about 2 years since I first published this book. I just cringe reading the first few chapters and sometimes wish I could burry them so no one can ever look at it. XD

I am once again really grateful for all of your guys' support and hope that you'll keep being by my side til I eventually die off, which you guys know will be difficult because let's be honest I'm not going to die that easily. I'm like a cockcroch. XD

Welp! That's all for this chapter! I hope you have a wonderful and majestic day! Bye bye! :3

(I forgot to say that the song up top is my favorite BTS song. X3)