Lost lovers l Yoonmin

I can't bear this anymore

Third P.O.V

Yoongi stayed in the park for hours, thinking about his life, what had led him to where was and what he was doing about it. He thought of Jimin. In a few weeks, this boy had made a way to his heart and Yoongi was at a crossroads, let Jimin in or push him back? Could he now be allowed happiness and love after them being denied to him for so long? Would Jimin even want him? 

His thoughts led him to realize that he still had not responded to Jimin and that surely he would be furious, sad and even more confused than before. Yoongi ran to his house, entered his room, throwing himself on his bed with his phone in hand in the hope of answering Jimin.

[Yoongi's phone]

<Panda 🐼>

Yoongi : Jimin I'm sorry if I didn't respond, I went to get some air after all that happened, I needed to clear my head and now I know, I like you Jimin, I really do and I want to make you happy because you have made me happy over the last few weeks and I want to be the one that makes you smile because your smile is the prettiest thing in this world. 

If I was mean to you it's because, as childish as it may sound, I was afraid of being with you but now I'm more afraid of losing you, do you forgive me, Jimin?

[Message not sent]

Jimin?

[Message not sent]

Jimin please don't tell me you blocked me

[Message not sent]

Jimin!!

[Message not sent]

 I'm sorry Panda...

[Message not sent]

That was it, Yoongi was  convinced he would never have the right to happiness and that he had lost Jimin. The only one left were Hoseok, the little boy in the park and his poisoned thoughts.

Jimin ran his hands through his hair and exhaled deeply, he was so mad and hurt he didn't know how to behave. He could feel his hands tremble in anger but he could also feel the tears prickling in the corner of his eyes. 

[Jimin's phone]

<Tae>

Jimin :TaeTae ??

Tae : Hey Chim, what's up ?

Jimin : Are you busy ?

Tae : I'm with Kookie, we spent the entire day together

Jimin: That's great...

I'll just talk to you later I guess

Tae: Jimin what's going on?

Jimin: I need you Tae. Please I can't bear the pain, I need my best friend

Tae: I'm here for you Chim, give me 10 minutes and I'll be there

I put my phone down feeling ashamed that I had to run to Taehyung when I was feeling bad, but I knew that only he would make me feel better. As I waited I thought about Yoongi, I had tried so hard to let him explain himself, to keep on holding on but now I saw, there was nothing between us and I was sure he knew who I was before even I told him. He was simply having fun with me and now that it got boring he left. I should have seen it coming, he's never been kind to anyone, why should he care about me, a stupid honor roll kid.

But then I started to think about all those times he would tell me to follow my dream, he was the only one who supported me and my dream. I sighed and ran a hand through my hair as I heard a knock on my door. I shot up, opened the door before throwing myself into Tae's warm embrace. His hands had just snaked around my waist that I was already sobbing, wetting his black shirt. I cried all my tears that night. Tears from stress, heart ache, injustice and the simple cruelty of life.

Taehyung caressed my hair, trying to sooth me, which worked. We were both laying down on my bed, my head on his chest, lifting up and down as he breathed, my hands wrapped around his waist securing me, our feet tangled and the only sound that was heard were my sniffles. 

I had told him everything that had happened between me and Yoongi, and he did what I was hoping he'd do, he took me in his arms, making me feel safe and loved and nothing else was said. I didn't need to hear anything from anyone, I just needed him to get through the night. I didn't want  think about Yoongi  or even about that boy.

I can't bear to think about you right now, I can't bear this anymore.

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Another depressing chapter but it will get better, its still not as long as i want it to be but i can't do better right now, i hope you guys will like it still. my writing sucks for the moment if not all the time, but i'm not focused enough i guess i'm sorry cause I really want to write well this story, so yeah I hope you like this story and please don't be a silent reader