"Ming, I am sorry" I said again but I could not look at his eyes which were staring at me intently
"Tell me what I did wrong, don't give me this, its not YOU, Its ME bullshit ... Kit" he said "Did I hurt you in anyway?"
"No" I stopped him before he could continue
"Then.. what?"
I sighed, "It is me, Ming" I took his hands in mine "it really is me. I feel like I am cheating on you"
"What? Are you... with who?" he was stunned
"No , I am not cheating" I tried to explain, this is going worse than I planned... I am not able to explain him properly, not when he is looking at me like his whole world crumbling down.
"Then?"
"I don't know how to explain" I sighed
"Then just tell me everything"
I took a deep breath, it's better to rip it off like a band-aid than sugar coating a bitter medicine
"I have always... always been in love with someone, and I am still not over him" there I finally admitted what has been in my heart for years
He was speechless, I continued
"So, I am with you but... but I think I still have feelings for him" I looked at him "it is not fair to you"
He was silent but he didn't let go of my hands
"But , I thought you said this was your first relationship ever" he asked after a long time "No, no – don't answer than, tell me who." He said
"Yes, this is my first relationship ever – mostly because I think I was in love with him all my life" I sighed
"You are still not telling me who?" he pushed
I just shook my head
"Have you confessed?"
I shook my head
He sighed out loud "Let me put it together, you are breaking up with me because you have feelings for someone who you have never confessed"
I kept silent, "Tell me who is it Kit?, no one will be foolish enough to let you go", he paused for some time "Is it Beam?"
Is it that obvious or does he know me that well
"You know I love you right?" he asked me again, his eyes tearing up a bit
Hurting him was not the worse thing I could do, staying with him despite my feelings for Beam is. I sighed
"I know you do, Ming – and that is why is it important." I looked at him in the eye "You deserve someone who loves you. Not me, but someone who thinks the world of you"
Tears where running down his face now, "I really am sorry Ming – but you deserve someone much better than me"
He wiped his face "but they will not be you" he sighed
I sighed "I wish I was as brave as you.... But Ming, I want you to be happy with someone who loves you as much as you do.....and I am sorry it's not me. YOU ARE A GOOD MAN, you deserve someone who loves you with his whole heart"
He looked at me funny and then smiled "You are breaking up with me because you care about my feelings"
How does me figure that out, I am selfish and that's why I am breaking up with him "No... you got it wrong"
"Nope" he smiled "But I am glad.... Thanks for at least telling me"
He got up, dusted off his pant "But – hear this, I give you 3 months. If you still have not confessed, If you are still single after that – then you will date me. Okay?"
I was not dumbstruck, what the hell is happening
"We are not breaking up – but just taking a break to sort out your feelings. If nothing changed in 3 months then it means that you love me" he winked and quickly bent down and planted a kiss on my nose
"Ming – you are"
"Nope, 3 months" he stopped me mid-sentence, he smiled "3 Months Kit" and walked away.
What the hell just happened?
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It was 9 PM and everyone had gathered around the campfire that was organized. Pha and Yo were sitting on my left, holding each other's hand and Kit was sitting on my right - looking a bit , well a bit surprised and lost.
Ming was on the opposite side, together with Forth and his engineering gang.
"Why are you not with him?" I asked Kit a bit curious, both by his expression and distance from Ming.
He looked at me and sighed "He is the campus moon – he is the center of attraction" I mumbled
"Well – tell that to those to over there – last year's moon and this year runner seem not to care" I looked at Pha, feeling happy for him
Kit bent over to look to at them, he smiled as he looked back at me "He deserves this"
"Yeah he does, and so do you" I told him without realizing what I was saying
"Beam?" he quietly called me, but then the crowd was asking for Forth to sing and he took out his guitar
"Hmmm?" I responded "What?"
Forth then started strumming, and then said "Beam – this is for you" before he started singing. There were a lot's of wolf whistles
I was stunned into silence but this sudden confession, while Pha turned to me and said " He is sincere"
I nodded to him and then turned to Kit, but he was no longer sitting next to me.
I wanted to see where he went but leaving now, especially after Forth statement felt like betraying him in public and I didn't want to embarrass him in front of his friends
But my eyes kept searching for Kit.
Forth finished his song, and as soon as he finished I got up.
"Where are you going?" Pha asked me
"Huh..." "Er.. bathroom" I lied and stepped out of the crowd searching for Kit.
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Star-Crossed
Fiksi Penggemar[Completed - Unedited] When life throws a curve-ball people say that best friends help you get through it, what happens when the curve-ball is in form of your best friend? Trying to step away from MingKit, This will be a whirlwind between Beam / Fo...
