Empty Classrooms. Phan AU

Chapter 7

Do you ever just wake up like I know this is going to be a bad day because, despite getting a healthy 8 hours sleep, you feel tired. Exhausted. And, despite nothing happening, you just want to curl up in a ball and cry in your room all day. And I have school so I can't do that.

(Sorry. If you couldn't tell today is a bad day mentally for me :/ I hope your day is better than mine)

Despite my abrupt exit in English, I still approached Kayla at the end of the day. We walked in a very awkward silence, the only sound being our footsteps and the rustling of the trees in the wind. I shut the door behind us and we were instantly approached by my mum. "Hey, Kayla!" She grinned: she had always loved Kayla. She definitely would have been overjoyed if she ended up with the girl as her daughter-in-law.

"Hi." Kayla quietly replied.

"Are you okay?"

Kayla sent me a furious look. "Yeah, I'm fine Ms Howell."

We sat down on my bed, our books open in front of us. After about half an hour, we had selected the two poems and started to analyse the first one. It was surprisingly okay: we worked together and completed half of the work in under an hour. We then decided to take a snack break so we ended up standing idle as the kettle boiled.

...Until she spoke up with, "So, Phil... what do you see in him?" She didn't sound as angry as before, instead... curious?

"He's just... perfect. He's beautiful, intelligent, funny, sweet..." My face turned a dark shade of red but I found myself smiling as I thought about the boy.

"That's disgusting," Sarcasm laced her voice but silence, once again, lapsed over us until the kettle fully boiled. I poured the hot water into the cups, stirring it. "One more question though?" I hummed a response as I handed over her cup.

"Did you ever actually love me?"

"I thought I did, I swear... but I didn't know what love was."

"Oh," She looked down at the contents of her mug, sighing. "Okay."

"You know I feel like absolute shit because of what I did, right? I never wanted to hurt you. I tried to tell you but- but- I was scared of causing you pain." My voice was starting to shake as a random tear trailed down my cheek. Kayla watched closely as it dripped to the floor.

"You have hurt me. You broke my heart."

"I know," That set me off. I started to sob, my body shaking as if I was having an inner earthquake. Kayla looked slightly lost- like she had no idea how to react. "I didn't plan on doing any of this. Then I had to mess it all up, didn't I? I'm the worst person on the planet and-"

"I think you deserve this pain. You were so selfish but that doesn't mean my feelings can just... vanish. I hate you so much, I really do but I don't want to see you like this. So... what if we put it behind us?"

"What?" I questioned in disbelief. I studied her for a moment, trying to detect any signs she was joking but she seemed pretty serious.

"I won't ever forget, Dan but I can understand your intentions weren't to hurt me. You were confused about your sexuality."

"Yeah," She smiled gently so I reciprocated it. I then hugged her tightly, just hoping it would be okay. "You can sit with us at lunch if you want."

-

"Phil, Kayla said we could sit with her." I muttered, fiddling with the straps of my backpack as I saw his expression harden.

"You didn't tell me you talked to her." He replied but we headed over to Kayla's table anyway. As we sat down, I sent Phil a look that basically told him I'd explain at a later date. Mark and Jack glared at us and PJ and Chris just looked confused so I avoided all of their gazes.

"What are you two doing here? I thought we made it clear we-" Mark started but Kayla cut him off.

"I said they could, okay? What they did was unacceptable and I'll never forget it but... you have to admit it's weird not having them here." Mark looked absolutely shocked: his mouth was open and closing repeatedly, as if he was a goldfish. I reached for Phil's hand, gripping it tightly.

-

"Care to explain why you talked to Kayla?" Phil questioned. Despite us being out, we still found ourselves hiding in empty classrooms, taking advantage of the privacy.

"Oh, yeah. Stupid English teacher put us into pairs for a presentation thing. She put me with Kayla which is just my luck really." I replied, watching as Phil nodded with a tiny smile on his face.

"Yep... and you're okay with being her friend again?"

"Of course. I do love her, just as a sister, you know?"

"Yeah, I get it," Phil gently pushed me backwards so I was pressed against the wall. "I have a question."

"Y-Yeah?" I looked up into his eyes, biting my lip to stop myself from just kissing him out of the blue.

"Do I make you happy?"

"Of course you do. You're-" He didn't let me finish because he had attached our lips.