Unexpectedly You

Chapter 39

I woke up the next morning starving. I stared into the mirror with red puffy eyes. A tear rolled down my cheek as I silently opened the bathroom door. I found James leaning against the wall next to the door. I quickly packed my things and got dressed. I had plenty of missed calls from my mom and family. I didn't even feel like calling back so instead I grabbed my stuff and left out the door. I purposely slammed the door and ran to the elevator. I ate breakfast downstairs and called a cab. I sat at the bench waiting for my cab. I still couldn't believe James would do this to me. I thought he really loved me. All those things he said to me, the ways he made me feel was all fake. I decided to call my mom and tell her I was coming home. "Wait why? Is everything okay?" She asked through the phone. "I'll tell you when I get home I-I don't want to talk about it right now, bye." I hung up and shoved my phone into my pocket. A taxi pulled up in the front of the hotel and I got up and headed toward the cab. "No Katy please!" I heard from behind me. I knew it was James, I didn't dare to look back. "Shut up and leave me alone." I said. I opened the door to the cab and closed it. I gave the driver my destination and left James there standing in the parking lot. It was about a 1 to 2 hour drive home. When I got home I unlocked the door and nobody was home. I received so many calls from James and all I did was listen to his voice mail. "Katy please call me back! I'm sorry okay! I-I-you-it wasn't supposed to turn out this way I fell in love with you along the way! I never expected it to be you I would love! Just call or text me back whenever I don't care when it is or where I am! Just call me back, I-I love you." Every single voice mail was nearly the same exact thing. I received messages from him, but I ignored them. I told Victoria to come over, that we have a serious crisis. A few minutes later someone knocked on the door. Wow that was quick! Thinking it was Victoria I opened the door and found James. I immediately slammed the door, "Leave me alone!" I yelled from inside. "I want nothing to do with you!" I yelled again. "Katy I know I made a mistake, I'm sorry just please forgive me!?" He pleaded. I opened the door and asked, "Why should I?" I couldn't even look at him without wanting to go lock myself in my room. "Because Katy, I love you, you are the only girl I have ever loved in my life! You're an amazing girl and I don't deserve you, but I can't live with myself knowing that you haven't forgiven me." He held both of my hands and knelt down. He kissed my hand, "Will you please forgive me?" He smiled at me. "I-I don't know." I sighed. His smile faded away, "Why?" He got up on his feet again. "I don't, I don't know. I have so many mixed feelings inside of me. Part of me hates you, part of me forgives you, part of me wants to jump on you and kiss you, part of me still loves you, and part of me wants to kill you right now." I sighed. He sighed and looked down. He let go of my hands. "James, I'm sorry I just need time and I-I just don't know." I looked down at my feet ready to cry again. "Okay." He turned around and punched the rail in my porch. "FUCK!" He yelled and walked back to his car. He ran his hands in his hair and exhaled. "GOD DAMN IT, WHY DID I DO THIS?!" He yelled out loud as he opened his car door. He started it and drove off. All I did was watch him leave, wondering if not forgiving him was a mistake.