I thought I would fall in love with someone else by now
That I would move on
Maybe I didn't try hard enough
But my stupid heart knows
It knows
You moved on
And I should have
It just hard
I want to
I realy do
I hate now being with you
But I also hate you not being happy
I am happy your with her
Kinda
I mean
Its not happy
But I'm not upset about it
I guess
I'm confused
But my stupid heart dosent care
It has decided to ignore my brain
My gut
And every bone in my body
That tells it to move on
To not get hurt again
I don't know why
Why I love how your hair is so soft
The way your eyes light up
The way you laugh at every thing
The way your smile is so perfect
The way you hug me
The way way every song reminds me
The way you held my hand
The way you broke me
The way you changed me
The way you fix me more every day
Or maybe it's that your the only person I trust
Or how I cried in front of you
And how you made that moment prefect
How I know
You won't leave
And that's scarry
But calming
Honestly every one else will leave
I know it
My whole family
My freinds
But you
I want to belive you
I need to
Even if we aren't dateing
It okay
Your the one
I love
Right now
In this moment
And you may not love me any more
Maybe you never did
But I love you
So much
Even tho your changing
In every way
I will stay
And I will always know
You where the first person I loved
And that is everything
Right now
Maybe tomaro things will change
And we will wake up
With new feelings
Oh honey
Wouldn't that be scary
For you to love me
And for me
To forget
Everything
Maybe that would teach you
But maybe I don't want you to learn
For if you learn such thing
I think we will end forever
Becuse You would know
As much as I then
That a broken heart
Is as bad
As a broken rib
No one could see it
But you can feel it
In every single breath
And you would stay up late wondering
Why me
And the answer is simple
They chose them
Not you
And it would kill you
And I think I would want to take that pain
Because I know
I will never forget
Your the one I am stuck to
I'm driving my self crazy
And that's okay
Because your watching
From a far
So you'll be safe
No matter what
And that
Is amazeing
To know I could break everything around me
And you'll be fine
You may not even see
You usually don't any more
Your blind to the same words
I'm fine
I'm okay
And it's true I am
I'm not hurt at all
I'm just not
Normal
Or even healed
Like my heart is broken
And wild
And my brain in stuck in a cell
Trying to break free
But every time it trys it gets more hurt
And my blood is running low
My heart neglected the rest of my body.
My lungs can't breath
I can't move
My eyes are shut
Until I see you
Then all of a sudden
My heart works like crazy
My arms can move
My legs run to you
My eyes open
And my lips
Remember you
And you remember mine
But you have
The whole time
And you don't miss them
For you have a new girl
And I
I have been left
Once again
And I still love you
Even though you
Love
Her
It's like a maze
But you found the end
And bordered mine up
And at the end
You found her
And all I found was a dead end
And a broken heart
That only knows how to love you
And I'm terrified
That I will never get out
Or maybe I will
And you will still be in love with her
Or I'll wake up
Finding out
You aren't real
And that you where just a dream
And I'll tell my mom and she'll tell me
That boys like you are real
And that you'll tell me pretty little lies
And I would have just wasted my love
On
A dream boy
So please
Love me
Even if it's just a dream
Becuse I need you
Right now
And I love you
I see the way you act
I know
You moved on
You changed
Just a little
You know
Your not fooling anyone
When you act like someone else
So why
Why did you chose her
When did you stop loving me
Why could I not be enough
Why did you change into this new person that dosent love me
You are leaving me slowly
I can feel it
I know you'll come back
Pleae
Just make it fast
Because no one can love me
My walls are to high
And your all ready in
So please
Don't leave
I'm happiest with you
Even if it's not real
I will always love you
Even if forever is just a fairy tale
I love you
Your my fairy tale ending
