You Are The Boss || N.S

The Christmas Party

Harry's POV (Friday)

I'm not going to the party with a date tonight and I'm hoping Niall won't either. I know it sounds selfish but I want him to myself.

If we're both without date then we can hangout as "lads" sadly but at least I'll get to stay with Niall.

He's become such a huge part of my life and I love him even though he doesn't like or love me back.

I just want to make him happy. I know buying him stuff isn't the answer but I guess he deserves to be pampered. I feel like I should pamper him because he makes me so happy.

Even just seeing him and holding his hand makes me happy. That reminds me I have to be at work in 10 minutes.

"Hey Ni. So ummm do you need a ride to the party" I ask him as he hands me a thick file.

"Isn't the party at your house?" Niall laughs because yes it's stupid. I'm offering to get out of the comfort of my own home (where the party is) and going to pick Niall up just to take him back to my place.

"Yeah, I don't mind coming for you" As soon as the words come out of my mouth I turn into the dark shade of a tomatoe.

"That's ok I already promised my date I'd pick her up" He says looking away.

Those 11 words broke my heart into million pieces. He already has a date and it's a woman.

I feel like the walls are closing in on me and I feel my eyes starting to water. I don't want to cry in front of him so I politely excuse myself.

I run into the bathroom and start crying. Why does this always happen to me? Why can't I just tell Niall how I feel?

Well, I do know why - I don't want him to think I'm a freak and leave me for good. I know Niall is bisexual but that doesn't mean he likes me.

I hear Niall knock on the door and yelling for me to open up but I won't let him. He can't see me like this.

"HARRY... OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE!" I hear him shouting on the other side. I hear him moving away when his phone rings.

I took this opportunity to open the door and run as fast as I can. I manage to get pass Niall and everyone else. I get into my car and drive off.

Niall was following me. He even got into his car and tried following me. I knew he lost track of where I was. He probably was going to my house so I couldn't go there.

I just drive and drive until I find myself next to the cliff where I had brought Niall one night.

I switched my phone off and spent hours just staring, thinking and crying. It was now 8pm and I knew I had to get home.

I couldn't just cancel a big party just an hour before. I couldn't let my feelings for Niall get in the way of work or anything related to it.

I wasn't worried about finding Niall there because I knew he had to pick up his date.
I start dressing and brushing my hair.

At around 8:45 I hear the doorbell ringing and I head downstairs. Many people start arriving after that.

"Niall, there you are" I hear someone say from behind me. I turn around and see Niall interlocking hands with a gorgeous lady. I roll my eyes and leave the room.

"Harry, talk to me" I hear a familiar voice say. It's Niall, obviously. I'd recognise that voice anywhere.

"Hey Niall. How are you?" I try to act as cool as I can and I can tell it's pissing Niall off.

"Don't give me that shit. I spent the whole day looking for you. What happened Haz?"

"Nothing. I just wasn't feeling well. I wanted to be alone."

"But what happened?"

"Nothing. It's fine now. I'd rather not talk about it"

"Ok then. If you ever want to talk about it I'm always here for you"

"Thanks, Ni" He pulls me into a tight hug and I start getting hot so I pull away.

"I better get back to the others" He just nods and walks away.

I feel like crying. Just tell him, Harry. But no I'm such a fucking ass. 

It's just past midnight and everyone seems to be gone so I run up to my room and close the door. I start crying while I remove my shirt.

I hear a knock on my door. I thought everyone had left but I guess not. "Who is it?" I say my voice cracking a bit.

"It's Niall. Can I come in?" He doesn't even wait for an answer, he just barges in. When he came in I was lying on the floor shirtless with red puffy eyes.

"What'd you want?" I ask trying to get up. "Harry, please talk to me. What's going on with you?"

"Nothing. I'm just having one of those off days. The So Dale project got shut down"

"Oh sorry to hear that."

"Can you stay the night?" I ask him placing my hand on his.

"Anything for you" He smiles intertwining our fingers

"Anything?" He nods

"Can you help me clean?"

"Sure but you're the Harry Styles. Don't you have a maid or something?" He laughs a bit.

"I used to but they started stealing and shit so I'd rather do the things myself." 

"We'll clean tomorrow though. I'm too tired"

We get into my double bed and we both turn away from each other. I couldn't really sleep so I stayed thinking about everything and nothing. I feel an arm creeping around my body.

I turn around and I see Niall spooning me. I feel safe and protected in his arms. I just want to lay here with him forever.Oh how I wish he was mine!