Troubled Soul (ryden fanfic)

Chapter 3- Move in Circles.

(Brendon's P.o.v)

  I wake up to a Shocked Ryan looking at me like he's seen a ghost, "You Okay buddy?" I asked him putting my hand on his shoulder, he jerked away. He got up off the bed and ran out my door. "Ry, wait!" I yelled after him. He was like halfway down the block now and I was shirtless.

  Shit, I walked backwards and put my hands on my head.

"Who was that?" My mother came up to me. "My friend," I looked away from her stare.

 "Good I don't want a gay boy, it's a sin remember." She patted my back. I moved away from her, "Why is it a sin? Tell me mother." I sorta yelled. She looked at me surprised and put her hands in her pockets.

  "God said so, Remember Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve." She raised an eyebrow. I rolled my eyes, "And who wrote the bible again?" I said putting on a shirt. She gasped.

"Brendon! You know we can't talk about that, what's wrong with you?!" She yelled. I leaned back a little bit, "I'm not christian!" I screamed and walked out of the door.

  "You will become one! I will make you!" She yelled in the door frame. I was walking down the block and it was cold as hell, should've wore a jacket.

  Where do I go now. Home? My mind immediately thought about Ryan when I thought about home. I want to protect him from everything, he's like a little puppy that has been abused, but still is surviving. I want to hold him in my arms and be able to kiss him. Wait what? No, Brendon. You'll disappoint your mom even more, you can't like a guy. But I do. I like Ryan.

(Ryan's p.o.v)

I've been walking down the streets for awhile, unfortunately I'm new here so I don't know my way around. So I'm lost, that's great. My parents won't notice, so I have nothing to worry about really. I mean what is home anyway? I don't think I have it, but it felt really nice in Brendon's arms.

  I don't know what happened last night, but I didn't have a good feeling, and ran away from my problems, like usual. I mean what would a straight, handsome, popular guy want a gay freak like me, it's not normal. Reality slapped me in the face, yea Ryan stop being stupid.

  I was sitting up against this wall somewhere and everything was quiet. I didn't have my phone with me and it was cold out. I'm so lucky, I swear. I sighed out cold air and pulled my legs close to me.

     I heard a yell from down the road, "RYAN! RYAN!" Shit was that my dad? I hid my head in my jacket and curled into a ball. "Ryan! Ryan! Thank god your alright." Yea that was not my dad. I heard steps come forward to me. I started to shiver in panic.

  I felt arms around me and I screamed and quickly moved away, I looked to see who it was. It was Brendon, He looked a Me worriedly. I got closer to him and embraced him, crying a little to his chest. He rubbed my back, I'm so glad he's here right now, like someone sent him here. Wait someone probably sent him here, what if this was all a joke.

  I pulled away from the hug, he looked at me confused, "What's wrong?" He asked. "Why-why are you here all the time?" I stuttered. He put his hand on my shoulder, I jerked away. I was uncertain about him, what If he dangerous?

  "Listen Ry," He began, I'm kind of scared, "I'm really insane about you, I know we just met. But something about you attracted me to you. I couldn't stop thinking about you. And holding you was, just-" He paused, "It felt like home." He added. I was speechless. I'm not sure if he is taking this as a friend thing, or lover thing.

  "Say something Ry," He sat there with his hands in his pockets. "Are you gay?" I asked. I mentally slapped myself in the face. He looked away and back into my eyes. He slammed his lips into mine for a quick second, "Does that answer you question?" He giggled. I felt the blood rush to my cheeks.

(Brendon's P.o.v)

  I just kissed him, oh my god. What if he's not gay?! He didn't pull back, well it was a one second kiss. He nodded when I asked him if it answered his question, "Well I'm not sure if I'm entirely gay, because I'm not allowed to be, and I have a girlfriend." I laughed. Ryan didn't look amused.

  "So you kissed me and you had a girlfriend?" He asked scooting away from me. I nodded, "but I don't really like her." I confessed. "Then why are you with her?" He questioned. "She's Christian, my parents want me to be full Christianity." I rolled my eyes.

  He mouthed a little 'o'. "Are you- bi?" I asked him, putting my hand on the back of my neck. "No." He said, A tear almost escaped my eye. "I'm fully gay." He said with a smile. I relaxed, thank- gosh. I was going to be so mad at myself if he wasn't.

   "Soo," I said in the awkward silence. "Where are you going?" I asked him, putting my hand on top of his, then looked at his reaction and quickly moved my hand away he looked shocked. "Um- I don't know." He said lost in thought. My cheeks got really red, "Want to stay at my place? You don't have to sleep in my room." I offered.

 "O-okay," He stutters. He's so cute when he stutters. Snap out of it Bren, he doesn't feel the same way.